DON'T READ THIS IF YOU INTEND ON JUDGING ME.
it's getting so hard for me to even breathe. every breath i take hurts. and i can't even tell anyone what's happening. everything is so bad right now. what i'm going through, no girl my age should have to go through. and whether your reading and thinking i'm an idiot for posting such personal information, this is livejournal. and i need to get it all out. everyone is so mad at each other and it's gotten so serious. please, GOD I am begging YOU, make this all stop, everything. I'll eat all my vegetables, i'll go to church every sunday...but please please please let this be over with.
and to add to this shit, someone please tell me why i was so stupid to tell him that i still had feelings for him, when i CLEARLY don't. for no fucking reason, i wasn't even thinking and then i clicked enter and it hit me of what i had just done. i was so desperate for consolling that i lied to get attention. it's completely pathetic.now he thinks i like him, and i DON'T. and i can't even look at him. JUST GREAT. I AM SO FUCKING STUPID!
and to add to this shit, someone please tell me why i was so stupid to tell him that i still had feelings for him, when i CLEARLY don't. for no fucking reason, i wasn't even thinking and then i clicked enter and it hit me of what i had just done. i was so desperate for consolling that i lied to get attention. it's completely pathetic.now he thinks i like him, and i DON'T. and i can't even look at him. JUST GREAT. I AM SO FUCKING STUPID!