meander

Jul 14, 2011 00:52

If you ask for my forgiveness, you're pretty much guaranteed to get it.

Just acknowledge you wronged me. Acknowledge my personhood to the extent that I did not deserve what you gave me, when it was under your power to serve me better.

I can hate arrogance and cruelty but not humanity and fallibility. I've wronged others myself -- and much wrong that is done is in thoughtlessness and ignorance rather than malice. Anyone who has the humility to see past their own ego has my respect. I won't hold others to a higher standard than I hold myself.

I'm not sure that's very "Scorpio" of me. Ah, Astrology. The temptation of the forbidden but the scorn of many enlightened. Too embarrassing to own up to. Too (often eerily) reassuring to denounce. Astrology for good or ill has become one of the major frameworks for my vision of reality. It is not omniscient. It does not dictate behavior. All it is, is the idea that patterns recognizable in the heavens will find their reflections on the doings of beings on earth.

It's laughably arbitrary when you look at how ignorant we were when we devised it. The sun going round the earth. Planets in "Retrograde". Missing planets. Missing signs if you look hard enough. No, I don't acknowledge Ophiuchus and the "revelation" was a few centuries out of date. The whole hullabaloo was about embarrassing astrologers in the first place. But the idea of people being moved into different signs as ages passed has been duly considered, and it drives the concept of "Ages". As in, the Age of Aries, Age of Pisces, Age of Aquarius.

It's just that it doesn't really matter. "Believing" in Astrology affects me in no real way except it gives me a reason to think life "makes sense if you look back at it." Doesn't make me believe in things that aren't real. Doesn't make me disrespect science. I want to be a biological researcher. I will not be looking to the stars for my test answers.

Back to Scorpio. Supposedly it has three aspects, through the contemptible and pathetic gray lizard, the powerful and dangerous scorpion to the heroic and formidable eagle. My Aries brother laughs and says "I've found that Scorpios are easy to deal with. Just don't piss them off."

I'm not really looking to get pissed off and I have no desire to hold a grudge for the sake of holding a grudge.

I'm not sure how "Scorpio" should respond to people who ask forgiveness but I can tell you Shannon Nicole, with sun and Mercury in Scorpio is generally moved by the very notion of asking forgiveness and has been wildly grateful on the occasions it has been granted her herself.

Still, for those who don't repent I don't forgive. I have it in me to forgive, but you have to have it in you to be forgivable. You know? Everyone has that in them, but some don't embrace it. My sister is one. I've "forgiven" her so many times and she's always come back like it's owed her. Forgiveness is precious because it's given voluntarily. Right?
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