Broken Promises and a Ruined Life

[tymeandryme]

So many words left unsaid
That I wish I could now speak,
Though my mind and my heart
Are at odds with one another
And the words refuse to form.
So many emotions left unexpressed--
Disdain, distaste, anger, irritation...
Yet still somewhere there is love and
A desperate desire to make it known.
So many promises left unfulfilled
That now I doubt any promise that is made,
And feel that they have all been made
Only to be broken.

You were supposed to be there for me,
to protect me and nurture me.
You were supposed to care for me,
to love me and respect me.
You were supposed to be family,
a decision that was not mine to make.

Why was I never good enough?
Why do I still feel that I shall never be enough?

You ruined me.
I fear I shall never recover.