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Yesterday I spent my day helping people to sell shoes. The shoe salesmen were driving me nuts though. It was really busy, and trying to remember where all the shoes went was mundane and a pain. It is not as if I hadn't remembered where they all are supposed to go....more like after a while I started to not really care. Having an attitude is not good but I was moody yesterday anyway before I even started.
I think when I start not caring about something like that I've trained myself to have this mental block go up. It is beyond not having interest and learning something despite that....it is more like my brain says, "Fuck this," and purposely ignores all incoming and outgoing information relating to it. Doesn't happen too often. So not good.
I'm already set to go back next weekend...maybe I'll have a better attitude then. That is most likely. In the meantime I need to stop having vivid dreams of putting shoes back in their correct locations, accurate to how they are laid out within the store I was working at. I so don't want to remember....I really don't.
I think when I start not caring about something like that I've trained myself to have this mental block go up. It is beyond not having interest and learning something despite that....it is more like my brain says, "Fuck this," and purposely ignores all incoming and outgoing information relating to it. Doesn't happen too often. So not good.
I'm already set to go back next weekend...maybe I'll have a better attitude then. That is most likely. In the meantime I need to stop having vivid dreams of putting shoes back in their correct locations, accurate to how they are laid out within the store I was working at. I so don't want to remember....I really don't.