confused
Im so lost right now. Wtf am I doing?
Attacking people to push them away.
finding ways to escape conversation.
procrastinating work.
being unsure aout everything.
wishing i wasnt here.
wishing i could just be happy alone.
I want to start from scratch.
clean the slate.
I hate myself.
Repeating the same damn things over and over.
hurting people and myself.
Big o bag of drama.
School is good i guess.
one of my teacher sucks.
i evaluated her poorly.
i hope i make above c's so i can keep my scholarship
want to be alone
so confused
need sleep
a long sleep
zoning is an eternal damnation created by a man named Todd
damnit I HATE THIS!
why am i even typing this out
fuck
thoughts...
the hold of a hand
the slumber
FORGET IT ALL!
wish i could delete like this key on this keyboard.
I would delete so many happy memories that hurt to remember.
DELETE
if eternal sunshine of the spotless mind was real i would so forget people so i could meet them all over again
all though im sure i would just follow the same path
and end up back where i am now
I think once I move people will forget about me.
scares me a bit
scared that i will be left alone in an apartment with nothing but my insecurities
probubly will happen
cutting my hair today
maybe that change will be good
Vince read me my horoscope
Libra's always try to balance everything
which would explain why I try to balance my friends and loves
never works
run away to mexico
Larry tried
I would so try but i cant do it alone
no money
I constantly see things that remind me of things trying to be forgotten:
cars identical
dancers
libra's love interests
movies that have the same scenario
friends getting together
DELETE
you hurt
DELETE
never try for a relationship i guess it never works
DELETE
run away
DELETE
love...
DELETE
Attacking people to push them away.
finding ways to escape conversation.
procrastinating work.
being unsure aout everything.
wishing i wasnt here.
wishing i could just be happy alone.
I want to start from scratch.
clean the slate.
I hate myself.
Repeating the same damn things over and over.
hurting people and myself.
Big o bag of drama.
School is good i guess.
one of my teacher sucks.
i evaluated her poorly.
i hope i make above c's so i can keep my scholarship
want to be alone
so confused
need sleep
a long sleep
zoning is an eternal damnation created by a man named Todd
damnit I HATE THIS!
why am i even typing this out
fuck
thoughts...
the hold of a hand
the slumber
FORGET IT ALL!
wish i could delete like this key on this keyboard.
I would delete so many happy memories that hurt to remember.
DELETE
if eternal sunshine of the spotless mind was real i would so forget people so i could meet them all over again
all though im sure i would just follow the same path
and end up back where i am now
I think once I move people will forget about me.
scares me a bit
scared that i will be left alone in an apartment with nothing but my insecurities
probubly will happen
cutting my hair today
maybe that change will be good
Vince read me my horoscope
Libra's always try to balance everything
which would explain why I try to balance my friends and loves
never works
run away to mexico
Larry tried
I would so try but i cant do it alone
no money
I constantly see things that remind me of things trying to be forgotten:
cars identical
dancers
libra's love interests
movies that have the same scenario
friends getting together
DELETE
you hurt
DELETE
never try for a relationship i guess it never works
DELETE
run away
DELETE
love...
DELETE