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[tyler_x_core]

I don't really want to go to college, and get a normal job and all that bullshit. I want to write, and record, and sing, and play guitar, and tour. I felt for some reason that I needed to do what I had to do to secure myself a normal life. Job, education, career, then wife, house, family. But no, I don't want to worry about any of that. I felt like that's what I needed in order to be happy with my life, and that's what I was going to work for. I really just think I was naive, and inexperienced in life. I definitely like the idea of marriage, and job security and whatnot, but that's so fucking boring when I think about it. I mean, I'm sure I'd be happy, but that's not what I REALLY want. At least not for a while. Love is cool, but it seems to escape me constantly, and it's just not worth the effort, or the struggle. I'd rather focus on music then sit and dwell on broken-heart bullshit. If someone comes along, then cool. I'm not gonna push them away, but I'm not going to put out all of my effort to find it.

I'm gonna work really hard to get one of these projects off the ground. I'll do it myself if I have to though. I've got things to say, and songs to write. I'll find my own little niche in music. I don't need to be some famous rock-star, I just want to write music that people can relate to, and respect. I really hope this gets me somewhere, even if it's just for a little while.