Thoughts

Sep 05, 2006 19:32

School starts on Thursday. Interesting. In ways I feel like I didn't leave. That's because this summer was so much about preparation for this whole school year and the things that it brings. And yet somehow I can feel unprepared in the midst of all that. I guess that's just how it is before the beginning begins again.

I've thought a lot about my career and all that stuff lately. I have no idea why I'm going into Chemistry. I know these next 3 years are all but mapped out for me the way I've made things now. But that's not really a great feeling for me. I like surprises and I'm feeling like I'm not getting any. Of course that would be having my cake and eating it too. I've got some things planned that I'd rather not see any surprises in. There are a few things that I'm being dragged into headfirst. There are more than a few things that are going to be a shot in the dark for me.
I'm just thinking about all this too fast. Not broken up enough. Not diluted. It's so concentrated that it's harder to deal with this way. But it's nothing I can't handle. Not by a longshot.

I've got to go workout soon. I'm sore and tired though. But I'll push myself even harder working out like this. Sometimes I wonder about more major things than a workout. If I push myself hard like I keep pushing myself hard all along for those events, what effect will it have on me? Guess I'll find out soon. Pushing myself hard is the only way I've ever gotten anywhere. I certainly haven't had much help from others. Except for a few people I hold close to my heart that is. I'll never forget them and I'm really in their dept.

Oh well, whatever. We'll see what happens. I've no doubt that it's gonna be fun anyway.
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