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Well I'm a wreck.
I really can't explain it but I,
I hear the music when I look at you.
Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
Well, I'm so in love with you.
wow.
youre right.
today is friday and i have had some realizations.
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Facade: I'm tough, happy and independant
truth: Im the loneliest I have ever been and although i have a great life, There is something that I long for and its missing. love.
Facade: I dont care what kari does, im over it.
Truth: I still care and although I shouldnt, it makes me sad to hear about things and how they have progressed. Am I sad because i have been replaced? am i sad because I am lonely and she is not? am i sad because i dont think i will ever get over a relationship that changed my life?dont know. id like to think its the second one, and not the other two.
Facade: "Im better off alone during this time in my life" or " i dont have time for a girlfriend"
truth: Im never better off alone, and A girlfriend is the only thing missing in my life right now between me and being the happiest i have been in a long long time.
Facade: "She" is my friend and thats all i need.I am happy with what we have attained.
Truth: "she" will always be my friend. no matter what. and i am happy with what we have attained. But, there is more. how do you combat that? how do you stop your heart from making the same mistake over and over again? Love is a wonderful and awful thing, and here i am in it. How do you cleanse the heart?
facade: when the show is over i will have so much more time to do things!
Truth: i am terrified. I have lost most of my friends and will not have many people to be around. i always get sad after a show ends. this one especially.
i have to go to class and be fun.
show tonight, thats good.
something to be excited about.
but first, class and work.
I really can't explain it but I,
I hear the music when I look at you.
Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
Well, I'm so in love with you.
wow.
youre right.
today is friday and i have had some realizations.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Facade: I'm tough, happy and independant
truth: Im the loneliest I have ever been and although i have a great life, There is something that I long for and its missing. love.
Facade: I dont care what kari does, im over it.
Truth: I still care and although I shouldnt, it makes me sad to hear about things and how they have progressed. Am I sad because i have been replaced? am i sad because I am lonely and she is not? am i sad because i dont think i will ever get over a relationship that changed my life?dont know. id like to think its the second one, and not the other two.
Facade: "Im better off alone during this time in my life" or " i dont have time for a girlfriend"
truth: Im never better off alone, and A girlfriend is the only thing missing in my life right now between me and being the happiest i have been in a long long time.
Facade: "She" is my friend and thats all i need.I am happy with what we have attained.
Truth: "she" will always be my friend. no matter what. and i am happy with what we have attained. But, there is more. how do you combat that? how do you stop your heart from making the same mistake over and over again? Love is a wonderful and awful thing, and here i am in it. How do you cleanse the heart?
facade: when the show is over i will have so much more time to do things!
Truth: i am terrified. I have lost most of my friends and will not have many people to be around. i always get sad after a show ends. this one especially.
i have to go to class and be fun.
show tonight, thats good.
something to be excited about.
but first, class and work.