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so everythign is better.. kinda
first off
progress report.. pretty goood if i do say so myself.. A B A C A D A.. wouldn't u say so? the D is in geometry and i dont no if i'll ever be able to bring it up cuz my teacher is a stupid philopeno..
neways.. me adn derek haev been bonding i guess u can say.. and its cool.. hes so great.. such a sweetheart.. on tuesday i cried my eye balls out cuz i was so confused.. and then i felt bad because derek had no idea wut was going on so i wrote him a long ass note.. 2 pages.. front and bak.. so 4.. jus explaining everything.. my feelings my thoughts.. everything.. he was glad that i pretty much poured my heart out to him and was like sydney do w/e u want to do.. follow ur heart adn if its not me then its not.. if it is me.. then great i'd be glad.. i told him that i was fallign for him but i did let him no that i do still have feelings for kirk.. but im deff. falling for derek.. and y wouldn't i? hes so great.. but he told me to do w/e adn make sure im happy in the end.. so im working on it.. on following my heart.. he invited me to homecoming dance.. and i said sure.. but i told him im not gonna dance.. cuz i can't dance. not to save my life.. im gettign steven L. to invite allie so she can go with us..
today wasn't so wonderful.. it was in a way.. and in others it wasn't..
*ways it wasn't..*
went ot sleep last nite at 12.. woke up at 5:30.. got in the shower and started feelign really really sick.. ended up throwing up.. ugh.. felt better afterwards so i went to school. got there adn met up with ky and amanda.. walked to where derek and them stand.. stood there and frooze my butt off.. walked with derek to his locker..a dn then my locker. then went to the cafeteria and sat and ate my special K bar as slow as i coudl.. my stomach didn't really want it.. ugh.. went to first bell adn got my progress report.. went to study and tried doign work but i was to tired so i fell asleep. bell rang.. went to lunch.. had a taco salad.. mmm... talked to allie the whole tiem then derek came in the last 10 mins.. talked with him.. bell rang.. he walked me to class.. or well half way so he wouldn't be late.. went to 3rd bell.. did the quiz all by myself without cheating off on allies.. waahoo proud of myself.. now watch me fail it.. um went to 4th bell and saw mr. nottingham.. i think he was trying to talk to me cuz he kept trying to get beside me and kept looking at me tryign to get my attention but i kept looking straight ahead cuz i dont want any part in that.... went ot 4th block.. much fun in there.. ms. blades is a crazy woman.. then bell rung.. caught up with dereka nd he walked me to my bus and i got home.. tried to take a nap but mom kept making me do stuff aroudn the house so i never got to.. talked to ky on the fone for a lil while adn then talked to allie for about an hour.. then got online and wrote in this thing.. and im out now.. later days
*syd*
first off
progress report.. pretty goood if i do say so myself.. A B A C A D A.. wouldn't u say so? the D is in geometry and i dont no if i'll ever be able to bring it up cuz my teacher is a stupid philopeno..
neways.. me adn derek haev been bonding i guess u can say.. and its cool.. hes so great.. such a sweetheart.. on tuesday i cried my eye balls out cuz i was so confused.. and then i felt bad because derek had no idea wut was going on so i wrote him a long ass note.. 2 pages.. front and bak.. so 4.. jus explaining everything.. my feelings my thoughts.. everything.. he was glad that i pretty much poured my heart out to him and was like sydney do w/e u want to do.. follow ur heart adn if its not me then its not.. if it is me.. then great i'd be glad.. i told him that i was fallign for him but i did let him no that i do still have feelings for kirk.. but im deff. falling for derek.. and y wouldn't i? hes so great.. but he told me to do w/e adn make sure im happy in the end.. so im working on it.. on following my heart.. he invited me to homecoming dance.. and i said sure.. but i told him im not gonna dance.. cuz i can't dance. not to save my life.. im gettign steven L. to invite allie so she can go with us..
today wasn't so wonderful.. it was in a way.. and in others it wasn't..
*ways it wasn't..*
went ot sleep last nite at 12.. woke up at 5:30.. got in the shower and started feelign really really sick.. ended up throwing up.. ugh.. felt better afterwards so i went to school. got there adn met up with ky and amanda.. walked to where derek and them stand.. stood there and frooze my butt off.. walked with derek to his locker..a dn then my locker. then went to the cafeteria and sat and ate my special K bar as slow as i coudl.. my stomach didn't really want it.. ugh.. went to first bell adn got my progress report.. went to study and tried doign work but i was to tired so i fell asleep. bell rang.. went to lunch.. had a taco salad.. mmm... talked to allie the whole tiem then derek came in the last 10 mins.. talked with him.. bell rang.. he walked me to class.. or well half way so he wouldn't be late.. went to 3rd bell.. did the quiz all by myself without cheating off on allies.. waahoo proud of myself.. now watch me fail it.. um went to 4th bell and saw mr. nottingham.. i think he was trying to talk to me cuz he kept trying to get beside me and kept looking at me tryign to get my attention but i kept looking straight ahead cuz i dont want any part in that.... went ot 4th block.. much fun in there.. ms. blades is a crazy woman.. then bell rung.. caught up with dereka nd he walked me to my bus and i got home.. tried to take a nap but mom kept making me do stuff aroudn the house so i never got to.. talked to ky on the fone for a lil while adn then talked to allie for about an hour.. then got online and wrote in this thing.. and im out now.. later days
*syd*