WTF Self
Ok so yesterday was one of the oddest days I've ever had which should have been a warning that at the end of it all I was going to lose it and become disgustingly emotional.
So I was planning on getting ALL THIS READING done for a Humanities testI have on Tuesday (it's on Gilgamesh and the Hebrew Bible =_=) so of course I didn't do any of that reading -sigh- Instead I did things that are not good for me out of some illogical impulse I can't explain. So for the entire evening I watched...
some X/1999 (Strike 1, CLAMP)
some show about Mormon Polygamy (Strike Two, POLYGAMY)
Boku wa Imouto ni Koi wo Suru or "I Love My Younger Sister" (Strike Three, INCEST)
Juno (Strike Four, TEEN PREGNANCY)
then listened to the music of Disney's "Sleeping Beauty" while reading Hellsing fanfiction (Strike Five,... I don't know what to categorize this as)
-We're not playing baseball I just felt like STRIKES was the appropriate way to describe... whatever the hell happened yesterday-
So to top it all off I ended up talking to someone who I should have already realized is nothing but bad for me and fell to a billion pieces of greenish-yellow dripping broken heart and had to be talked out of hysteria at 3am by someone I've never met IRL and told to value myself and go to bed...
I'm so dreadfully embarrassed, disappointed, and grateful, so this is mostly a note for myself to remember what not to do