Is there no justice left in the world?

[tygr2169]

Does no-one take responsibility for their actions anymore? It's a sad shame that people have no integrity, no sense of self worth, and no backbone. Although perhaps it is just my un-vented anger and my unquenched desire to know that she's suffering. After all, I'm suffering, Aevelyn is suffering in her own small way, Ann is suffering, and even Shawn is suffering (dealing with everyone's anger and mistrust along with his own guilt, but at least he's being man enough to stand up and take the hits. he'll be better off for it in the end). So why isn't she suffering? Why should Shawn shoulder all the responsibility and repercussions when they are both equally at fault? Yet life in her own little delusional world seems to be just peachy, and THAT my friends, just pisses me right the fuck off! And I can't do anything about it. My therapist says it wouldn't be good for me right now. He's a very cool guy. He says not to try to confront her just yet, it would probably be more destructive than constructive at this point (even though I feel that blowing off some steam by screaming at her so hard and so long she's left crying in a corner sounds very constructive to me, I'm trusting his professional opinion). But he also said not to change my life to avoid her either. If I run into her he feels that I can handle the situation. He says that my anger is very normal and that I have a right to be as angry at her as I want as long as I keep it less than a felony. Told you he was cool :) It just doesn't seem fair does it? It's like a drunk driver killing a family in a car wreck and walking away with no injuries. Sure, he might do some time, but in the meantime the family of those killed has their entire life turned upside down and it will never be the same. Is that justice? So what if she's not comfortable in her house all the time anymore? My life will never be the same. Aevelyn will probably forget, but Shawn, Ann, and I will always live with the consequences, and it seems, there are no consequences for her. Her life never skipped a beat. Don't let that last statement mislead you, Shawn is just as guilty as she, so he deserves the consequences he's facing, but the difference is that he's facing them head on. He knows that his whole life this is going to hang over his head and he's willing to face that. He knows that his future is no longer certain, that life as he knows it could end any day with the smallest mistake, and he's facing that, but what did I do? What did Ann do? Most of all, what did Aevelyn do? Why should our lives been torn apart while she walks away with no injuries, like a drunk driver, killing people's lives and doing a little time before going out to do it again? The questions are haunting me and the answers allude me... The pain is still too fresh for me to let this go now, but she's also too unimportant for me to be wasting my energy on, so I'm trying to leave it up to Mother. Mother knows best because Mother knows all. One of my religions oldest mantras is said to come from her, and let me tell you, the Three Fold Rule is a bitch. I just hope I get to be there when justice is served.

Thanks guys for letting me vent here...