Fuck you stupid day...
Goddess!!!
I really hate today, first off my ex called this morning just to say "Happy Valentine's Day".
and i told him to fuck off..grrrrr
So that set my mood for today.I don't think i will ever like this fucking day.
Men have never been the one's to go out of their way to make me feel loved one this day.
So i just have grown to not care anymore, and that is how i feel today.
For me today is just monday, but it sucks when i walk in and see all the flowers and crap..makes me want to throw up...
i am bitter for the simple fact that i am not even divorced yet, and i feel like i will never find anyone to be with ever again.
like i pointed out to my ex, it is easier for him to get a date. Cause woman love kids, and to see a guy with a kid does something for woman.
But for me it is not going to be as easy, cause guys see a woman with a kid and run the other way.
Now i am just venting, and it does not help to see my best friend so happy and in love. even though i am so fucking happy for her, she deserves to be happy..
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.....
* bangs head on desk*
I just want to feel loved and special just once...
But on a good note, the only good thing about today. is the uncoundisatnal love i get from my son.. waking up to his cute smile made my day. So i love you my little!!!
Ok i am done....for now....
I really hate today, first off my ex called this morning just to say "Happy Valentine's Day".
and i told him to fuck off..grrrrr
So that set my mood for today.I don't think i will ever like this fucking day.
Men have never been the one's to go out of their way to make me feel loved one this day.
So i just have grown to not care anymore, and that is how i feel today.
For me today is just monday, but it sucks when i walk in and see all the flowers and crap..makes me want to throw up...
i am bitter for the simple fact that i am not even divorced yet, and i feel like i will never find anyone to be with ever again.
like i pointed out to my ex, it is easier for him to get a date. Cause woman love kids, and to see a guy with a kid does something for woman.
But for me it is not going to be as easy, cause guys see a woman with a kid and run the other way.
Now i am just venting, and it does not help to see my best friend so happy and in love. even though i am so fucking happy for her, she deserves to be happy..
aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.....
* bangs head on desk*
I just want to feel loved and special just once...
But on a good note, the only good thing about today. is the uncoundisatnal love i get from my son.. waking up to his cute smile made my day. So i love you my little!!!
Ok i am done....for now....