2012 Wrap up, text-only edition part 2
2012. A year that was filled with changes.
Gods, that line sounds like something from a film or a presidential speech.
2012 was a year that, during which, I went through some serious ups and downs. I know I wasn't the only one either. And let's face it; 2012 was a year that was filled with people getting vicious with each other over political stuff and personal events alike. Friends were losing friends over what ultimately turned out to be rather small things that had been blown up into deal-breakers.
One of the downs that really turned out to be an up in the end was the loss of The Job. And the folks that had a hand in it? They can suck it. *que Sean Connery*
Another one of the downs was the shut-down of City Of Heroes. That's a wound that is still open and trying to heal. Like everything else I've experienced, it'll take some time before the wound is patched over. How much time, I can't honestly say. I just know it'll be a while yet.
The worst of the downs, simply put, was my depression. It's an on-going quest to find and defeat the cause, but man when it kicked in? It was its own kind of hell. The sort that makes me not want to get out of bed for days on end.
The ups? I'm free from that crap job. I lost and kept off 7 pounds of weight--which I'm hoping will be a continuing trend for me this year--and found that I could in fact love myself the way I am, although sometimes it goes from love to hate. I got back into school and have been making progress toward getting my degree. I did some volunteer work, participated in some art events, went to a book release party, and attended PHXCC again. I learned how to live again, how to actually find time to enjoy things and have a good time.
Now I'm dealing with things one day at a time. It will always be a process for me, steps that ultimately lead to good routines and such, but it's also not an incredibly fast thing either.
I intend for this year to be another one filled with learning and living and loving and breathing and growing. Creating. And as for last year... It had to be lived through, even though it sucked. We're all better off for it, I think.
Gods, that line sounds like something from a film or a presidential speech.
2012 was a year that, during which, I went through some serious ups and downs. I know I wasn't the only one either. And let's face it; 2012 was a year that was filled with people getting vicious with each other over political stuff and personal events alike. Friends were losing friends over what ultimately turned out to be rather small things that had been blown up into deal-breakers.
One of the downs that really turned out to be an up in the end was the loss of The Job. And the folks that had a hand in it? They can suck it. *que Sean Connery*
Another one of the downs was the shut-down of City Of Heroes. That's a wound that is still open and trying to heal. Like everything else I've experienced, it'll take some time before the wound is patched over. How much time, I can't honestly say. I just know it'll be a while yet.
The worst of the downs, simply put, was my depression. It's an on-going quest to find and defeat the cause, but man when it kicked in? It was its own kind of hell. The sort that makes me not want to get out of bed for days on end.
The ups? I'm free from that crap job. I lost and kept off 7 pounds of weight--which I'm hoping will be a continuing trend for me this year--and found that I could in fact love myself the way I am, although sometimes it goes from love to hate. I got back into school and have been making progress toward getting my degree. I did some volunteer work, participated in some art events, went to a book release party, and attended PHXCC again. I learned how to live again, how to actually find time to enjoy things and have a good time.
Now I'm dealing with things one day at a time. It will always be a process for me, steps that ultimately lead to good routines and such, but it's also not an incredibly fast thing either.
I intend for this year to be another one filled with learning and living and loving and breathing and growing. Creating. And as for last year... It had to be lived through, even though it sucked. We're all better off for it, I think.