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Valintine's Day is right around the corner. I get so lonely around this time. Ive been doing alot of thinking lately. I've never been more uncertian about my life then right now. I was thinking about calling Russell and asking him if he wanted to go out with me and Rayna for Valintine's Day. But I found myself hesitant. I still get so nervous around him. I know he still loves me and I do love him but I'm scared that something will happen between us and that I'll hurt him again. But I miss him so much. I love him and wish that it wasnt me that caused all the pain in his life. I just read his journal, and It makes me feel so bad. What the fuck is wrong with me. What girl in her right mind would turn from something like that. Someone like that. I have him in my sight, but Mike in my heart. Life just doesnt make any sense.