SSHG Prompt Fest
Okay. So I can't give out a whole lot of information for obvious reasons, but I'm pretty apprehensive about it. This is my first prompt fest on LJ, and I really would like to do a good job for my promptee. I'm a little uncertain about the direction it's currently going--Severus feels out of character to me, but every time I try to make him more "in character" I get met with resistance. Which usually means the character is taking control and I should just leave it alone if I want to keep my sanity.
On the other hand, I'm dithering a bit about the lemons that I have determined I will write. They always freak me out even though I know I am able to do them (proof positive: Scandalous chapters 2-3 seem to have only gotten good reactions.) I've committed to trying a couple of things I have not done before, and I'm worried that I won't be able to pull it off, or that I will not be able to in time, or worst of all...what if my promptee doesn't like it?!? What if NOBODY but my friends like it? But how awful am I going to feel if I don't deliver because I'm having a silly panic attack about lemons and if it's liked or not? This is a prompt fest, so it's not like I have to write a novel. Still...still.
I've read some fics of exchange past, and can't help but feel intimidated by joining a game I know some very experienced writers are likely playing in, too. I'm writing long snippets and psyching myself out in turn, which is typically why I don't join challenges. I usually get awesome results, but the stress I give myself in the process is silly.
I'm not looking for reassurance, I know I'll be just fine once I get back in the groove, I just had another mini panic attack and needed to vent to the blogosphere in general about my ridiculous insecurities. I think most writers get insecure and psych themselves out about writing on a regular basis, though. At least, this is what I have seen from Live Journal. Some writers though...they do amazing work, and never seem to have those niggling doubts. Perhaps I test the waters too much when it comes to my writing. Maybe I should do as Enya does and lock myself up in a castle and become a recluse and pretend there is no outside world until things are complete.
Ugh.
Back to Severus... whom I left musing about life, the universe and everything.
PS: My fic STILL hasn't told me it's name. Its getting worrisome.
On the other hand, I'm dithering a bit about the lemons that I have determined I will write. They always freak me out even though I know I am able to do them (proof positive: Scandalous chapters 2-3 seem to have only gotten good reactions.) I've committed to trying a couple of things I have not done before, and I'm worried that I won't be able to pull it off, or that I will not be able to in time, or worst of all...what if my promptee doesn't like it?!? What if NOBODY but my friends like it? But how awful am I going to feel if I don't deliver because I'm having a silly panic attack about lemons and if it's liked or not? This is a prompt fest, so it's not like I have to write a novel. Still...still.
I've read some fics of exchange past, and can't help but feel intimidated by joining a game I know some very experienced writers are likely playing in, too. I'm writing long snippets and psyching myself out in turn, which is typically why I don't join challenges. I usually get awesome results, but the stress I give myself in the process is silly.
I'm not looking for reassurance, I know I'll be just fine once I get back in the groove, I just had another mini panic attack and needed to vent to the blogosphere in general about my ridiculous insecurities. I think most writers get insecure and psych themselves out about writing on a regular basis, though. At least, this is what I have seen from Live Journal. Some writers though...they do amazing work, and never seem to have those niggling doubts. Perhaps I test the waters too much when it comes to my writing. Maybe I should do as Enya does and lock myself up in a castle and become a recluse and pretend there is no outside world until things are complete.
Ugh.
Back to Severus... whom I left musing about life, the universe and everything.
PS: My fic STILL hasn't told me it's name. Its getting worrisome.