Meh.
I have way too much stuff on my mind. I just want to take some time off from life. :S
First, there's the matter of being with friends. I want to spend lots more time with friends, as I'm in a social mood or something these days. However, I can't seem to distribute time properly between real life and internet-socializing, so now I'm almost never on MSN anymore, which annoys me, because there's lots of people I wish I'd talk more to on MSN. But still, there's also lots of people I feel I don't spend enough time with IRL.
Then there's school. I skip way too much, and my parents are starting to find out. I wish I wasn't so damn lazy. SHIKKARI! >|
And let's not forget anime. I'm probably getting close to 30 episodes I have to watch in order to keep up with the ongoing season, and I really want to keep up with it. But where to find the time? Not to mention manga or books, where I'm completely hopeless.
I'm finally getting more excited about my birthday, though. Talked some with Rakel today, and that helped me figure out who to invite and such. I'm just making a big deal out of things.
My old social insecurities are coming back as well. Perfect, just when I start meeting people. I'll fight it off. Stop caring too much about what everybody thinks about you. You're not that bad. Probably.
There are also several other things, some of more private nature. I wrote myself a private entry, the first in many months. That felt good. I need to remember to do that more.
As reflected in this entry, my head is kind of a mess right now. Oh well, it'll get better, I guess. Just needed to vent a little.
First, there's the matter of being with friends. I want to spend lots more time with friends, as I'm in a social mood or something these days. However, I can't seem to distribute time properly between real life and internet-socializing, so now I'm almost never on MSN anymore, which annoys me, because there's lots of people I wish I'd talk more to on MSN. But still, there's also lots of people I feel I don't spend enough time with IRL.
Then there's school. I skip way too much, and my parents are starting to find out. I wish I wasn't so damn lazy. SHIKKARI! >|
And let's not forget anime. I'm probably getting close to 30 episodes I have to watch in order to keep up with the ongoing season, and I really want to keep up with it. But where to find the time? Not to mention manga or books, where I'm completely hopeless.
I'm finally getting more excited about my birthday, though. Talked some with Rakel today, and that helped me figure out who to invite and such. I'm just making a big deal out of things.
My old social insecurities are coming back as well. Perfect, just when I start meeting people. I'll fight it off. Stop caring too much about what everybody thinks about you. You're not that bad. Probably.
There are also several other things, some of more private nature. I wrote myself a private entry, the first in many months. That felt good. I need to remember to do that more.
As reflected in this entry, my head is kind of a mess right now. Oh well, it'll get better, I guess. Just needed to vent a little.