Masculine? Feminie?
Well I'm 58% female... heh... and when i use my other nick, "sherlia" i'm neither.. 0% feminine and 0% masculine... huh?
oh well .. i think there's something wrong with me... I'm very easily drained. easily tired. and restless.
i'm feeling bored with life again.. its like, yeah, i'm pretty much enthusiastic about what i'm doing now.. then again there's this part of me where i'm in a "seen all, done all" mood. How should i explain this. its easy. its easy to sway ppl to my opinion. its easy to make ppl laugh. its easy to have a conversation, phase out and still be able to be in the conversation.. taking the pics of the event that i'm singing in, that's easy too. and i see these young ones, 20, 21 year olds fretting over things that .. well i should say, i've never really been bothered about things that i find even silly then. things that irritate me as well. things that are simply so bitchy and mean. then again, i'm meaner and bitchier. i don't even have to unsheath my claws to manipulate these young ones. they are all putty in my hands. and i'm bored by their intellect. really. i'm not saying that i'm smart. but i yearn for a stimulating conversation. i can feel my brain rotting. going into the dumps. and hence i've been really just reading stuffs. just so that my brain is still working. help.
Oh, but there is an upside to this all. its easy to enjoy the fellowship that i have with my bible study group. nice bunch of ppl really . thank god for that.
well its only a week more to the hols. really waiting for that. visiting timmy down there. going to canberra on sat. so maybe it won't be so bad.