january
so much has happened this month.. its pretty crazy. lets see... i went from the beginning of the month where i was contemplating my relationship with christopher... i was living off $1 for 2 weeks.. to being terribly sick... to going camping to being incredibly bored, painting my wall and doing a 1000 piece puzzle... to getting a pretty good job where i dont really do ANYTHING... to being content with my relationship with christopher.... to possibly moving to new york by the end of february. holy shit.
my whole world feels like its about to change.
at first, i was scared shitless. freaking out about being alone and all of those kind of jitters. now, i wouldn't say im completely ready but im okay to go and embrace it. new york has always been my dream.
i havent talked to cassandra in forever. we had a big falling out a couple months ago. she basically wanted me to choose between christopher and her. a pretty selfish demand... and i hate it when people try to have control over me.. so i chose the person that wasn't making me choose - christopher. and maybe ill regret it but i definitely dont want people in my life that put that kind of pressure on me. anyway. i do miss her and i wonder sometimes what shes doing. pretty weird how some people are one day in your life and then one day, out of your life. pretty pretty tricky.
ps - work is so boring.
my whole world feels like its about to change.
at first, i was scared shitless. freaking out about being alone and all of those kind of jitters. now, i wouldn't say im completely ready but im okay to go and embrace it. new york has always been my dream.
i havent talked to cassandra in forever. we had a big falling out a couple months ago. she basically wanted me to choose between christopher and her. a pretty selfish demand... and i hate it when people try to have control over me.. so i chose the person that wasn't making me choose - christopher. and maybe ill regret it but i definitely dont want people in my life that put that kind of pressure on me. anyway. i do miss her and i wonder sometimes what shes doing. pretty weird how some people are one day in your life and then one day, out of your life. pretty pretty tricky.
ps - work is so boring.