Cause I just have to get it out
Last friday I met a really nice guy named Cain. We had a nice chat and said we would meet up again soon. Monday I go to the lake and there he is and we have another nice talk. He told me I was pretty and had pretty eyes and I was nice and stuff. There was big time blushing for me. He asks for my number again so I give it to him. Then that was it. Haven't seen him or heard from him. Made me so upset today that patti yelled at me. Well, not yelled but talked sternly.
I'm cursed. I only get to do things twice and that is it. I only went to Miss Kitties twice and that was it, I saw nathan twice and that was it, I saw andy twice and that was it, I've been to Genes twice now and that will be it and I've seen Cain twice and that will probably be it. I hate this. what is wrong with me? i've gotten so upset that ive dodged my mom and my precious just cause I cant deal. is my former friendship with dan still affecting me? cause this started happening after we were over. it sucks. ive tried telling myself that its not a big deal, that im over reacting. it doesnt help. i so badly want a relationship and this one felt like it was going in that direction. i miss it.
the only time I got excited today was when I was watching Duets and I saw that Hal Sparks and Jai Rodriguez are contestents. Plus I saw a commercial for Vanished that Gale Harold is on. *sigh* i hate being alone.
I'm cursed. I only get to do things twice and that is it. I only went to Miss Kitties twice and that was it, I saw nathan twice and that was it, I saw andy twice and that was it, I've been to Genes twice now and that will be it and I've seen Cain twice and that will probably be it. I hate this. what is wrong with me? i've gotten so upset that ive dodged my mom and my precious just cause I cant deal. is my former friendship with dan still affecting me? cause this started happening after we were over. it sucks. ive tried telling myself that its not a big deal, that im over reacting. it doesnt help. i so badly want a relationship and this one felt like it was going in that direction. i miss it.
the only time I got excited today was when I was watching Duets and I saw that Hal Sparks and Jai Rodriguez are contestents. Plus I saw a commercial for Vanished that Gale Harold is on. *sigh* i hate being alone.