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Ok, I'm having a very nostalgic, kinda want to puke moment. I was just looking at my ex and his wife's sites and it's just ridiculous. I'm overwhelmed (that's an exaggeration) with a lot of different kinds of feelings. Anger. Bitterness. Disappointment. Disgust. Jealousy. Envy. Disdain. Pride. Many things. None of which are good. There is a tiny part of me that is happy for him, but it is tiny. I just feel as if that should not be him. I don't want it to be me, but I don't think it should be him either. Why does he have a wife and an almost child. Why does he have a happy family. Why? How did he find the love of his life two weeks after being with me ... and here's a little bit of the bitterness coming out, but how could he be with someone so not attractive (to put it very mildly). So that's sort of the gist of everything I'm feeling now. Extreme negativity.