Good Afternoon
Yeah-- so its been a while since ive updated this thing, so heres a lil recap. Work---sucks as usual. Some people who claimed they were my "friends" turned out to be total fucking a-holes. Well----whatever, fuck 'um. I did get accepted to Schoolcraft College. YAY FOR ME! -- now i can get my nursing degree and get the EFF out of here. I am SO happy with Shawn, but he is somewhat less than impressed with me apparently. I guess after 3 years, my shininess wore off, and now im not good anymore. ouch. That hurts the ol' ticker -- not like it's in excellent condition to begin with...but hey.....thats life now isn't it. I'm just sorry i can never do or say anything to show my love is real....and that our 3 years together are completely based around my hysical appearence and our sex life. thats it. i guess thats all im good for...but now that i know my role and where i stand, i can work on becoming that "perfect 10" for him. im just really fucking hating life as of an hour ago. I had SUCH a great month too...esp. as far as shawn and i, having as much fun as we have been having, being as close as we have been....i dont know...this is like a slap in the face. GD it! why can'ti just be perfect?!?!?! if i had a perfect porn star body AND the sex drive to boot, and the money, and fame, i'd be PERFECT in his eyes. just perfect. but im not, im amy michalski. thats all ill ever be. but you know what? im ok with that....