back to drugs!
ok for some reason my needs are expanding, emotional ones... aint no question i have some of the best friends anyone could ask for, but i still dont feel comfortable just dropping ALL of what im feeling on one person or another... my feelings are so mixed up... i have no clue how to handle them, so im just going to flashback to about two years ago where i just eat a bunch of drugs and put my feelings aside for another few weeks/months... alchohol just leaves my brain functioning too well the week after and my emotions are all over the place... dont get me wrong, im still going to booze it up, and booze it up well... its just imma throw some other chemicals in the mix...
id just rather put these feelings aside until they go away... and i really do hope they go away... because i need to step into reality, wake up, not be controlled by my emotions, and get on with my life... so imma add some more fun to my weekends... oddly its opposite for most people, but the most stable my emotions have ever been was when my life was "headed nowhere" with a full time a job and eating lots of drugs
id just rather put these feelings aside until they go away... and i really do hope they go away... because i need to step into reality, wake up, not be controlled by my emotions, and get on with my life... so imma add some more fun to my weekends... oddly its opposite for most people, but the most stable my emotions have ever been was when my life was "headed nowhere" with a full time a job and eating lots of drugs