life is good.
I just got back from a trip to see my mommy and Megan for 2 weeks. I was all over s. and n. carolina and virginia, and I had a grand ole time! cxept for the night I saw mike wrote a bunch of BS in his lj for the sole purpose of hurting me, but hey its gravy baby. I can't believe how pathetic I was when I moved here, even -after- what he did to me, I still tried to make it work. I'm so incredibly retarded sometimes. But im finally learning that lying douchebags DO exist, and to wake up and not waste my life on them. And amazingly, life's wonderful without him. It'd still be nice if he'd grow the eff up and admit all the things he did and actually -tell- his family we are married, but whatever. Not my problem.
So i've been hanging out with Erin and Keshia the past 2 or 3 days, and putting together a big scrapbook. My mom had like 13 cameras of mine from way back when and I spent 70 bucks getting them developed! SO worth it! Tomorrow Davids coming over in the morning *grin*. Nicks coming back from Austin next week I think, theres a big superbowl party this weekend at Wes's, Bridgette is due to have her baby any day now(technically shes due tomorrow) Carries due in march, and basically things are awesome. Only thing is tonight before I go to bed I need to clean my room, do some laundry, and take a shower. I usually stay up pretty late but for some reason I could probably drop where I am right now. Last night Keshia Erin Daniel and I went to some Thai restaurant for dinner and it was actually pretty good, i've never had thai food before. Then we went to Rao's and I got some blueberry gelato, SO good! We laughed our arses off of course, as we always do. I'm sorry, but Chicago has NOTHING on Texas. People here just even in the most general sense are so much nicer and so much kinder, I finally feel back in my element. Which is retarded, you'd think being nice and layed back wouldn't be something centered soley in one area.
I'm still hurting a bit and I still have a difficult time trusting people, but its better to learn a hard lesson early on than 20 years from now, right? Luckily for -me- though, I have 100 friends to help me and love me and keep me going. So, in short, life is good.
Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh
So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy
Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah
Well, she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy
It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone
Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me
So i've been hanging out with Erin and Keshia the past 2 or 3 days, and putting together a big scrapbook. My mom had like 13 cameras of mine from way back when and I spent 70 bucks getting them developed! SO worth it! Tomorrow Davids coming over in the morning *grin*. Nicks coming back from Austin next week I think, theres a big superbowl party this weekend at Wes's, Bridgette is due to have her baby any day now(technically shes due tomorrow) Carries due in march, and basically things are awesome. Only thing is tonight before I go to bed I need to clean my room, do some laundry, and take a shower. I usually stay up pretty late but for some reason I could probably drop where I am right now. Last night Keshia Erin Daniel and I went to some Thai restaurant for dinner and it was actually pretty good, i've never had thai food before. Then we went to Rao's and I got some blueberry gelato, SO good! We laughed our arses off of course, as we always do. I'm sorry, but Chicago has NOTHING on Texas. People here just even in the most general sense are so much nicer and so much kinder, I finally feel back in my element. Which is retarded, you'd think being nice and layed back wouldn't be something centered soley in one area.
I'm still hurting a bit and I still have a difficult time trusting people, but its better to learn a hard lesson early on than 20 years from now, right? Luckily for -me- though, I have 100 friends to help me and love me and keep me going. So, in short, life is good.
Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh
So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy
Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah
Well, she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
Yes, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy
It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long gone
Long gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone
Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me