Eh
just not in the best of moodes at the moment, i have a myspace thingy i updated awhile back so ill put that here and then update again. hmm just depressed at the moment
here is what i wrote awhile back
sadness, but ill live
Current mood: sad
yeah, im sad, but ive come to deal with it. This kinda feeling happens often, more often than id expect. but Ill deal. I get mislead and (not directly) lied to. told things that are not really the truth. BUT i deal. i was givin shitty news, and hey, i just got upset. its been worse when others have done it, but ive shown progress since i deal with it. anyway, more on it in my livejournal to be updated shortly
bryan
yeah, so oh well. im still kinda bummed out and that was a month ago. exactly a month. maybe i am just on a weird swing of things. I cant be happy and nor can i make anyone else happy. hopefully Home Depot gives me a call so i can start back makin money. They have so many stupid things goin on there, it will be a big test of my patience to keep my mouth shut and just deal. I hate being known as a whiner, i just think things can be better and i voice my opinion. but anyway, People are a big let down. Just all people. i dont like trusting anyone, i think once i save up a ton of money and get rich with the lotto (a guy can dream cant he) im going to pay all my debts, and move away. some place where i can go and do as i please and not deal with anyone. maybe develop a new set of friends or not. i dont care. i dont hang out with anyone new anyway. All of its bullshit. ive been told by 3 different people that we will hang out... and what happens. not a good god damn thing. im told by others that i am cool, but its all bullshit. what i hate is when i am at a bar with my friends, and everyone has someone but me. what the fuck is that about. why am i passed over. why do i gotta throw myself on the grenade or liqueur up the "we gotta go girl" if i want anything. Fuck that. i have standards and i am not settling for anything. thats why i want to move. just get away from everything. if i won the lotto i wouldn't tell anyone. id collect then pay off then disapear. i dont think anyone would notice for atleast a few weeks, cept my parents and my roomie. but thats my plan.
(hey, who is the person who puts the lil comment? dont be anonymous, just say who you are, im wondering)
bry
here is what i wrote awhile back
sadness, but ill live
Current mood: sad
yeah, im sad, but ive come to deal with it. This kinda feeling happens often, more often than id expect. but Ill deal. I get mislead and (not directly) lied to. told things that are not really the truth. BUT i deal. i was givin shitty news, and hey, i just got upset. its been worse when others have done it, but ive shown progress since i deal with it. anyway, more on it in my livejournal to be updated shortly
bryan
yeah, so oh well. im still kinda bummed out and that was a month ago. exactly a month. maybe i am just on a weird swing of things. I cant be happy and nor can i make anyone else happy. hopefully Home Depot gives me a call so i can start back makin money. They have so many stupid things goin on there, it will be a big test of my patience to keep my mouth shut and just deal. I hate being known as a whiner, i just think things can be better and i voice my opinion. but anyway, People are a big let down. Just all people. i dont like trusting anyone, i think once i save up a ton of money and get rich with the lotto (a guy can dream cant he) im going to pay all my debts, and move away. some place where i can go and do as i please and not deal with anyone. maybe develop a new set of friends or not. i dont care. i dont hang out with anyone new anyway. All of its bullshit. ive been told by 3 different people that we will hang out... and what happens. not a good god damn thing. im told by others that i am cool, but its all bullshit. what i hate is when i am at a bar with my friends, and everyone has someone but me. what the fuck is that about. why am i passed over. why do i gotta throw myself on the grenade or liqueur up the "we gotta go girl" if i want anything. Fuck that. i have standards and i am not settling for anything. thats why i want to move. just get away from everything. if i won the lotto i wouldn't tell anyone. id collect then pay off then disapear. i dont think anyone would notice for atleast a few weeks, cept my parents and my roomie. but thats my plan.
(hey, who is the person who puts the lil comment? dont be anonymous, just say who you are, im wondering)
bry