what a weekend
i had a weekend that was fuckin weird. i called up nick n told him to meet me n lauren at the mall... little did i know he was gunna bring Jared. he looked so good.. jared... i mean nick too.. but oh my god.. jared looked so good. he got 3 new pericings, and they ALL look so good on him. i hadnt seen him for months. i missed him so much, i relized how much i still wanted to be with him cuz hes just so great.
when i think about Jared i dont think about what happend with us, how even though we...u know... we didnt get together. i think about how everything abuot him i love, the way he sings is so cute, his little sayings.. they way he says them. Just the way he look at me. those eyes...GOD those eyes! i cant help but remember the way he kisses. i relate almost everything i see to him..anything purple...jose quervo...carona..jack daniels especially. anything ICP. anything MUSTANG related.. not an hour goes by when i dont think of him. this sux...
he broke my heart. i know it sounds like rediculs..bc he wasnt even my boyfriend... but i fell SO HARD for him. n i thought i had him. and i wanna see him all the time, eventhough it hurts, i want him to be happy but at the same time i wanna be the one to make him happy. i could treat him so well and he doesnt even know much i care about him.
so anyway i bought a bottle of smirnoff vodka bc i hated seeing jared so good knowing im not so good..and i drank more than 3/4 of it and was so drunk i couldnt walk, i could barely talk..n so eventually at about 1:30 am mt stomach desided that the vodka didnt belong there, along with anything else in my tummy. so i go outside to throw up and i forgot there was a step... n i twisted my ankle.. im so retared sometimes
when i think about Jared i dont think about what happend with us, how even though we...u know... we didnt get together. i think about how everything abuot him i love, the way he sings is so cute, his little sayings.. they way he says them. Just the way he look at me. those eyes...GOD those eyes! i cant help but remember the way he kisses. i relate almost everything i see to him..anything purple...jose quervo...carona..jack daniels especially. anything ICP. anything MUSTANG related.. not an hour goes by when i dont think of him. this sux...
he broke my heart. i know it sounds like rediculs..bc he wasnt even my boyfriend... but i fell SO HARD for him. n i thought i had him. and i wanna see him all the time, eventhough it hurts, i want him to be happy but at the same time i wanna be the one to make him happy. i could treat him so well and he doesnt even know much i care about him.
so anyway i bought a bottle of smirnoff vodka bc i hated seeing jared so good knowing im not so good..and i drank more than 3/4 of it and was so drunk i couldnt walk, i could barely talk..n so eventually at about 1:30 am mt stomach desided that the vodka didnt belong there, along with anything else in my tummy. so i go outside to throw up and i forgot there was a step... n i twisted my ankle.. im so retared sometimes