Marriage is always so interesting....
Last night, I officially had my first Cry-fest in front of my Husband. He did great too.
He said the magic words last night as I was pulling laundry from the dryer "What wrong, what happened at work today to make you so sad....tell me about it."
I had one of those selfish pride issues with myself for a second as we both played tug-of-war with the towel I was holding, I knew if Evan touched me in anyway I would lose it and let everything go from the 2 calls I got from loved ones with sad news as well as my overwhelming busy day at work (One for the record books according to Tracy).
He hugged me, I lost it.
for more then and hour and a half I sobbed, and I'm not talking about the sniffles here...I'm talking about gut-wrenching, screaming into his shirt, made myself sick...sobs! The last time I cried like that was 5 years ago after my dad died..I remember sitting on my friends bed and not being able to stop myself from crying and it freaked me out, I had no control of my emotions. It was also the week after his death and after I had it out...I was fine.
Evan was so amazing with me, I always try to cry when I'm alone, I'm weird I know. I mean, yes Evans seen me cry before but when I know it's going to be awhile then I do it in private. But last night, he wouldn't budge. He sat there, listened and actually comprehened half of my mumbled sobbing speech, held me when I'd sob hard, and actually made me feel a whole lot better on how to handle the situations I'm struggling with right now. Once I stopped the sobs we laid in bed and just talked....about everything.....my struggle with my faith....our marriage.....our families......our plans.....our friendships and what they mean to us....school.....
I highly recommend it. we had no intentions of a heart to heart, nothings wrong between us, we're both doing great and our marriage is strong but just making the time for each other last night an forgetting about laundry and vaccuming and the messy kitchen to focus on each other (and my emotional "breakdown") I know now that I don't give my Husband enough credit, I constantly tell him to let me know about EVERYTHING but I'm not doing that with him. I'm putting so much n myself when he's right beside me willing to share the load.
I'm so freaking Blessed!
Although my eyes still hurt today and everyone's in a negative mood here at the office. I feel lighter and I know what I need to do for my 2 friends going through hard times right now. God is always in control and I know he's telling me to do something for my beneift as well as for theirs. I just need to stop doubting myself.
On a happier note before I say Adios.....
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY NAN & GARY!
32 years today. WOOT.
haha, we LOVE you.
Thanks for hearing me out again ladies (and few gents). I cherish your advice and imput and am thankful to have such amasing people in my corner.
-Brittnye
He said the magic words last night as I was pulling laundry from the dryer "What wrong, what happened at work today to make you so sad....tell me about it."
I had one of those selfish pride issues with myself for a second as we both played tug-of-war with the towel I was holding, I knew if Evan touched me in anyway I would lose it and let everything go from the 2 calls I got from loved ones with sad news as well as my overwhelming busy day at work (One for the record books according to Tracy).
He hugged me, I lost it.
for more then and hour and a half I sobbed, and I'm not talking about the sniffles here...I'm talking about gut-wrenching, screaming into his shirt, made myself sick...sobs! The last time I cried like that was 5 years ago after my dad died..I remember sitting on my friends bed and not being able to stop myself from crying and it freaked me out, I had no control of my emotions. It was also the week after his death and after I had it out...I was fine.
Evan was so amazing with me, I always try to cry when I'm alone, I'm weird I know. I mean, yes Evans seen me cry before but when I know it's going to be awhile then I do it in private. But last night, he wouldn't budge. He sat there, listened and actually comprehened half of my mumbled sobbing speech, held me when I'd sob hard, and actually made me feel a whole lot better on how to handle the situations I'm struggling with right now. Once I stopped the sobs we laid in bed and just talked....about everything.....my struggle with my faith....our marriage.....our families......our plans.....our friendships and what they mean to us....school.....
I highly recommend it. we had no intentions of a heart to heart, nothings wrong between us, we're both doing great and our marriage is strong but just making the time for each other last night an forgetting about laundry and vaccuming and the messy kitchen to focus on each other (and my emotional "breakdown") I know now that I don't give my Husband enough credit, I constantly tell him to let me know about EVERYTHING but I'm not doing that with him. I'm putting so much n myself when he's right beside me willing to share the load.
I'm so freaking Blessed!
Although my eyes still hurt today and everyone's in a negative mood here at the office. I feel lighter and I know what I need to do for my 2 friends going through hard times right now. God is always in control and I know he's telling me to do something for my beneift as well as for theirs. I just need to stop doubting myself.
On a happier note before I say Adios.....
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY NAN & GARY!
32 years today. WOOT.
haha, we LOVE you.
Thanks for hearing me out again ladies (and few gents). I cherish your advice and imput and am thankful to have such amasing people in my corner.
-Brittnye