unhappily ever after
so man. my boyfriend is MOODY....
and it is so not helping my pms. i dont know why he cant just be happy being in that house, its fricken adorable and weve managed to almost completely move in, in one week. i think i have for boxes left. three of which are full of books.
bleh. yesterday he was just a grump, we got our propane on (yay) but the phone company fucked up and so he was all mad about not having a phone line yet. and then we had to go to my moms...which also made him pissy because he didnt want to have to leave. then later all of a sudden he went outside..and then when i went out to put some boxes outside i realised his car wasnt there anymore...and it really irritates me that he didnt tell me!
give it some time babe. give it some time. I guess i need to as well, ive been a little freaked out about him, and worried about him not being able to handle this. im the first girlfriend that hes ever gotten a place with...the other two that hes lived with he moved in or they moved in. I know how bad he just wants a place of his own, and everything his way, and i hope he can compromise without it ruining our relationship. i always wanted my own place too....but he feels like such a part of who i am sometimes that i just dont see him as an interuption to my space :). but hes even more of a loner than i am...ive been trying to give him his space but if he could at least tell me whats wrong then i wouldnt be worried its me >.<
and also the sex has been bad. not bad, like bad sex bad. but bad like i dont feel hes even really that into me...and the pressure to try and cum before its been an hour is just starting to suck some of the enjoyment out of it for me. grr. and pms. i think im going to go buy some lingerie today at lunch :D i figure it cant help. maybe ill find some porn at home too...ill get all randy and maybe we can have some good sexin. its worth a shot....
i think that tonight, im going to drink a couple glasses of wine, chill out, and write. or draw. or do anything crafty. im thinking writing. ive had the urge for a while now to write something and get all this built up shit out somehow. so i think ill write a little grungy tonight.
also i want another tattoo. scratch that. i crave one :P
and it is so not helping my pms. i dont know why he cant just be happy being in that house, its fricken adorable and weve managed to almost completely move in, in one week. i think i have for boxes left. three of which are full of books.
bleh. yesterday he was just a grump, we got our propane on (yay) but the phone company fucked up and so he was all mad about not having a phone line yet. and then we had to go to my moms...which also made him pissy because he didnt want to have to leave. then later all of a sudden he went outside..and then when i went out to put some boxes outside i realised his car wasnt there anymore...and it really irritates me that he didnt tell me!
give it some time babe. give it some time. I guess i need to as well, ive been a little freaked out about him, and worried about him not being able to handle this. im the first girlfriend that hes ever gotten a place with...the other two that hes lived with he moved in or they moved in. I know how bad he just wants a place of his own, and everything his way, and i hope he can compromise without it ruining our relationship. i always wanted my own place too....but he feels like such a part of who i am sometimes that i just dont see him as an interuption to my space :). but hes even more of a loner than i am...ive been trying to give him his space but if he could at least tell me whats wrong then i wouldnt be worried its me >.<
and also the sex has been bad. not bad, like bad sex bad. but bad like i dont feel hes even really that into me...and the pressure to try and cum before its been an hour is just starting to suck some of the enjoyment out of it for me. grr. and pms. i think im going to go buy some lingerie today at lunch :D i figure it cant help. maybe ill find some porn at home too...ill get all randy and maybe we can have some good sexin. its worth a shot....
i think that tonight, im going to drink a couple glasses of wine, chill out, and write. or draw. or do anything crafty. im thinking writing. ive had the urge for a while now to write something and get all this built up shit out somehow. so i think ill write a little grungy tonight.
also i want another tattoo. scratch that. i crave one :P