Time time time time time... passing of time.. tick tock tick tock.
I am being remind at the seconds tick off of how thing have changed second, minute, hours, days, weeks, months... years... and more years.
You think you have stayed the same then something comes along and just smacks you in the face and really lets you know how much you have changed.. your life, your beliefs, wanting.. all of it.
And it is even more so when you have kids in your life. You remember how things were when you were a child, and then realize on how much it changes from then.
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This past months have been odd. Not bad, which is a good thing. Just odd.
Mom has been staying here a lot more getting tired of the other family member's crap and to help me out. It is a good thing. I enjoy having mom here. It feels right. It feels like this is where she belongs. And when she isn't here, you can tell the difference.
Nick turned 4 years old, about two weeks ago. Gods... 4. Yep. Independent as ever. Heard headed. Smarter than you think. We did his party at Chuck E. Cheese with family. Then when we got home Mikie and Nena was here and stayed the night. It was really great in seeing them. Nick ate it up. I am wondering if he is going to expect this every year now.
Alex, geezz. Alex turned 18 and has his driving license. And is going to college. He is almost done with his first semester.
Michael. Every time I think of him I smile. We have hit the 5 year mark and still going strong.
Me... me, me, me.... It is funny, in the past 2 weeks I have never realized how much I have changed over the years. I met up with an old friend of mine from high school. Vinnie. Tall, Dark and Handsome.... lol. We became fast friends when we met in school. He was from NJ. And it was great. Every girl was chasing him, except for me. We were friends, best friends.
After leaving my brothers place after Thanksgiving, we went and visited Vinnie and his family. He has a lovely wife, Corrie, and 4 kids. All of the kids are just like him. As we sat and talked we shared stories of how we were like in high school and he even had a few of the year books. Damn did that bring up memories. Not going to go into them. But it was differently an eye opener.
On the drive back home I kept on going through things realizing how much I have changed and how everything else has changed too since I was little living in the same house my older brother is in now in PA, to where I am now in TN.
Then last night, while playing on FB, a friend's picture reminded me of a different time in my life, and how I changed since then. The people that I was friends with then, the music I listened to, what all I did for fun, everything has changed.
I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing that I am thinking about all this. In part I am trying to figure out why I changed. Yeah a lot of it is just that I grew up and had to be an adult than just be someone who was older. But some of it I don't know why. Maybe I will figure it out, maybe I won't.
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So now I continue to think and wonder, and enjoying the memories.
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. Or at least enjoyed the day. Because, you know, that time is gone.... and the next 25 of November, or the next day, may not be like the last one. Everything changes. Tick, tock, tick, tock...
You think you have stayed the same then something comes along and just smacks you in the face and really lets you know how much you have changed.. your life, your beliefs, wanting.. all of it.
And it is even more so when you have kids in your life. You remember how things were when you were a child, and then realize on how much it changes from then.
***************
This past months have been odd. Not bad, which is a good thing. Just odd.
Mom has been staying here a lot more getting tired of the other family member's crap and to help me out. It is a good thing. I enjoy having mom here. It feels right. It feels like this is where she belongs. And when she isn't here, you can tell the difference.
Nick turned 4 years old, about two weeks ago. Gods... 4. Yep. Independent as ever. Heard headed. Smarter than you think. We did his party at Chuck E. Cheese with family. Then when we got home Mikie and Nena was here and stayed the night. It was really great in seeing them. Nick ate it up. I am wondering if he is going to expect this every year now.
Alex, geezz. Alex turned 18 and has his driving license. And is going to college. He is almost done with his first semester.
Michael. Every time I think of him I smile. We have hit the 5 year mark and still going strong.
Me... me, me, me.... It is funny, in the past 2 weeks I have never realized how much I have changed over the years. I met up with an old friend of mine from high school. Vinnie. Tall, Dark and Handsome.... lol. We became fast friends when we met in school. He was from NJ. And it was great. Every girl was chasing him, except for me. We were friends, best friends.
After leaving my brothers place after Thanksgiving, we went and visited Vinnie and his family. He has a lovely wife, Corrie, and 4 kids. All of the kids are just like him. As we sat and talked we shared stories of how we were like in high school and he even had a few of the year books. Damn did that bring up memories. Not going to go into them. But it was differently an eye opener.
On the drive back home I kept on going through things realizing how much I have changed and how everything else has changed too since I was little living in the same house my older brother is in now in PA, to where I am now in TN.
Then last night, while playing on FB, a friend's picture reminded me of a different time in my life, and how I changed since then. The people that I was friends with then, the music I listened to, what all I did for fun, everything has changed.
I don't know if it is a good thing or a bad thing that I am thinking about all this. In part I am trying to figure out why I changed. Yeah a lot of it is just that I grew up and had to be an adult than just be someone who was older. But some of it I don't know why. Maybe I will figure it out, maybe I won't.
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So now I continue to think and wonder, and enjoying the memories.
I hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving. Or at least enjoyed the day. Because, you know, that time is gone.... and the next 25 of November, or the next day, may not be like the last one. Everything changes. Tick, tock, tick, tock...