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[twstdxpectation]

So my comuter was broke for a while. But it's aight now it works, the shit should for $300!! But so now i have no more school, i have a diploma, and im trying to get into college wich is gonna cost more money. But im working in the mornings now at abercrombie still so hopefully will learn how to save money. Ha. But i hardly have time to be with

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[xswttemptationx]

I'm leaving this comment becuase maybe just maybe you will read this since you won't answer your phone or even call me back. You changed your password this morning. We fell asleep on the phone the other night. I don't understand. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I feel totally lost and more upset than I have ever felt in my entire life. I thought I was going to grow up with you. I thought you would be there to hug me when life got hard. I know it was a long year and a half but It feels like it only lasted a few days. I wanted forever. I still do. I love you more than anything I will ever be to explain to you. I close my eyes and the only thing I see is the memories of walking on the beach or walking into wendy's that first day. I walk around and all I can see is your face on everyone else. I have nothing to hide from you. I'm not going to change my password to piss you off or to hurt your feelings. You are still the biggest part of my life even though your technically not really "in it". I will continue to think about you everyday and hope that things will work out. I'm not crazy. I promise. I love you. And I thought you loved me as well, but maybe something changed. I know that we had a ton of stupid arguments in the last few weeks but Aaron I know that through it all you are my one and only and there is nobody in this world that could take your place. My friends are begging me to come out tonight and I can't even bring myself to take a shower and make myself presentable. I miss you. I just want to cuddle and lay on the couch and dream about the future that we were supposed to have together. The tears just won't stop comming and I can't even fall asleep. Maybe this is easy for you but it's killing me. I wish I could die. Then I wouldn't have to think about you moving on with your life. . . becuase I really don't want to move on in mine without you. I know how I feel about you. And I know that this is all my fault and now I think your never going to talk to me ever again. And I don't even really know how i'm supposed to say goodbye to you. how do I? I can't. I never will. Maybe you will ignore me forever but I will ALWAYS be here with open arms waiting for you to understand that you mean the world to me. I can't even keep writing this right now my eyes are filled with too many tears. I love you Aaron. Please come home :(