Missing In Person
Hmph. Things lately have been rough. Satan's really wearin' on me. Especially with my anxiety. Gets me everytime. I think part of it also is that I am striving for some sort of church family - but not sure where to find it. Went to this new church last night called "Paradox Church" --- i have to still do a lot of praying but I think it would be a good place to settle down as a home church for Jon and I.
I feel like i've been drifting all over the place with no place to call home - kinda like Dorothy in the wizard of oz except for the fact that I really don't havea place to call home. Always been a wanderer and never really settled anywhere. But I want to settle - especially with lil' Skylar on the way.
I'm worried about finding an apartment b/c i have one bad rental history on it and my credit isn't the best. Not the worst - but definitely not the best.
Just please pray that God's will is done in my life with my engagement and with this child. I'm so scared and unsure of what is going ot happen - which i think is causing some of my anxiety. But I know that God will work it all out for the best and that I truly have nothing to worry about. He will provide. Jus t all in HIS time not mine. Soemtimes those don't always match up...arg. but that is what patience with grace is for.
I just pray that God continues to give me the strength to depend on Him daily with EVERYTHING. and to continue to love Jon like my Father loves me and to do my best in everything.
Also for another job - not to quit the one i have but ot bring in some extra income.
gotta go - work is over for the day. g'nite
I feel like i've been drifting all over the place with no place to call home - kinda like Dorothy in the wizard of oz except for the fact that I really don't havea place to call home. Always been a wanderer and never really settled anywhere. But I want to settle - especially with lil' Skylar on the way.
I'm worried about finding an apartment b/c i have one bad rental history on it and my credit isn't the best. Not the worst - but definitely not the best.
Just please pray that God's will is done in my life with my engagement and with this child. I'm so scared and unsure of what is going ot happen - which i think is causing some of my anxiety. But I know that God will work it all out for the best and that I truly have nothing to worry about. He will provide. Jus t all in HIS time not mine. Soemtimes those don't always match up...arg. but that is what patience with grace is for.
I just pray that God continues to give me the strength to depend on Him daily with EVERYTHING. and to continue to love Jon like my Father loves me and to do my best in everything.
Also for another job - not to quit the one i have but ot bring in some extra income.
gotta go - work is over for the day. g'nite