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right now, I just want to get out. I need to do something, oh yeah, that thing is smoke a cigeratte.
I hate having help.
I like being cared about, but I can take care of myself, please! And even when I can't, it's hard to accept help, but I'm learning to feel ok about it. I'm learning...nobody has ever cared this much about me before. I'm getting used to it. It's causing me to change my ways, it's causing me to take better care of myself and family and friends.
I really don't like and didn't remember the extent of self destructiveness that people have around here.
It's really sad.
Keep your mind going and take care of yourself, people!
Keep your mind going!
Stay intereste4d in life, not just getting wasted!
In related news, I feel as though I am over over over drinking mass amounts. I've done it maybe 4 times since I've been back, and it's just not the same. It's not really fun anymore. Along the same lines, I don't even like going out to parties in the wee hours of the night/morning anymore. It's just not interesting to me anymore. The daytime is really interesting. I would love to experience and be a part of the light hours of the day.
It's supposed to snow 1-4 inches tonight, and I want to ice skate. The rink downtown a few blocks away form here is open. It looks really cute.
I've been really good at controlling myself lately. I've never had a decent amount of self control before, but I sure do now. I feel like I have a huge atvantage over a lot of people because of that. I've been really happy like this, pretty much, for the last six or eight months.
Been thinking a lot about time lately. So many events I feel matter because they happened, and the time at which they happened seems a lot less important.
Well.
right now, I just want to get out. I need to do something, oh yeah, that thing is smoke a cigeratte.
I hate having help.
I like being cared about, but I can take care of myself, please! And even when I can't, it's hard to accept help, but I'm learning to feel ok about it. I'm learning...nobody has ever cared this much about me before. I'm getting used to it. It's causing me to change my ways, it's causing me to take better care of myself and family and friends.
I really don't like and didn't remember the extent of self destructiveness that people have around here.
It's really sad.
Keep your mind going and take care of yourself, people!
Keep your mind going!
Stay intereste4d in life, not just getting wasted!
In related news, I feel as though I am over over over drinking mass amounts. I've done it maybe 4 times since I've been back, and it's just not the same. It's not really fun anymore. Along the same lines, I don't even like going out to parties in the wee hours of the night/morning anymore. It's just not interesting to me anymore. The daytime is really interesting. I would love to experience and be a part of the light hours of the day.
It's supposed to snow 1-4 inches tonight, and I want to ice skate. The rink downtown a few blocks away form here is open. It looks really cute.
I've been really good at controlling myself lately. I've never had a decent amount of self control before, but I sure do now. I feel like I have a huge atvantage over a lot of people because of that. I've been really happy like this, pretty much, for the last six or eight months.
Been thinking a lot about time lately. So many events I feel matter because they happened, and the time at which they happened seems a lot less important.
Well.