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[twowheeldeath]

I'm so sick of being sick, I hope I get better some time. I feel like some of this may never go away. I'm not trying to be dramatic. It's just that I've been sick for so long and it just slowly kept getting worse until now where I can't even sleep because it hurts so bad. And the thought of having to be in a car for an hour today almost makes me want to calcel. And I can't remember what it feels like to not be this sick.

I hate that I have to borrow money from friends to pay my fucking bills. I don't even have to pay insurance or own a car and still barely have any money. I still don't know how I'm going to pay my traffic ticket I got in Michigan. Or the two parking tickets. I hate driving so fucking much. I wonder if I can voluntarily give up my liscense instead of paying my tickets? That would be fine since there is no way I can pay them for like 3 months. And there is no feasible way that I could own a car in the next 5-10 years of my life. I am so fucking annoyed right now.

Fucking stab a knife in my ear.

I know that was dramatic but it was a joke to try to make things seem lighter.

At least the sun is out today for the first time in probably a few weeks. It's awesome. It's been raining a ton.