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Today was the last day of school, and it was a fun day, but definitely emotional. I really suck at this saying goodbye and transitioning thing. Even though this year was quite the roller coaster, being at work felt like home. I got really close to a lot of my coworkers and a lot of the kids and it's hard to know that I won't be there next year. Even though I'll visit, it won't be the same. And I know that I won't get to visit nearly as much as I'd like.
I got a card that all the kids signed and one of them, whom I've worked a lot with because he has a lot of anger problems and emotional reactivity, wrote "I remember when you helped me calm down." I immediately started crying when I read that. It felt really big. Like, even though he hasn't visibly changed all that much, I must have made some kind of impact, and it made all the shit with him feel worth it.
I'm having dinner with coworkers tonight, going in on Monday to hang and help clean the classroom. We have plans to have a pool party this summer and take a road trip. But even with all these plans, it's naive to think that we'll really still see each other all that much in the future. It won't be the same as seeing each other every day and it makes me sad to think about.
And man, there are a few kids who I will miss dearly. A couple in particular were hugging me all day and making me pinkie swear I'd come visit.
I wish I were just excited that it was summer. It'd be nice if this weren't so hard.
I got a card that all the kids signed and one of them, whom I've worked a lot with because he has a lot of anger problems and emotional reactivity, wrote "I remember when you helped me calm down." I immediately started crying when I read that. It felt really big. Like, even though he hasn't visibly changed all that much, I must have made some kind of impact, and it made all the shit with him feel worth it.
I'm having dinner with coworkers tonight, going in on Monday to hang and help clean the classroom. We have plans to have a pool party this summer and take a road trip. But even with all these plans, it's naive to think that we'll really still see each other all that much in the future. It won't be the same as seeing each other every day and it makes me sad to think about.
And man, there are a few kids who I will miss dearly. A couple in particular were hugging me all day and making me pinkie swear I'd come visit.
I wish I were just excited that it was summer. It'd be nice if this weren't so hard.