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Getting ready for the CSET tomorrow at the crack of dawn. I've been studying all week (and even some of last week) and I'm feeling a little nervous but pretty confident that I'll pass. I took my last practice test this afternoon and only missed 2 out of 39 multiple choice questions and nailed the 3 essay questions.
But I'm starting to psych myself out now about this entire process of getting my credential and being a teacher. As of tomorrow I will have the CBEST and the CSET Subtest III down (the easiest of the 3 subtests). After that there's 2 more CSETS to do in the next 4 months which are scarier for me because I'm super weak with history and with science. Then, beyond all the work I'm going to have to do in grad school (assuming I get in...) -- which will be a LOT, especially if I go on to get my Masters, which I probably will-- I have to take the CTEL, the RICA (which is supposed to be really hard) and the CTC. I hadn't even heard of the CTEL or the CTC (or even the RICA til last week). And then after all that I have 5 years to clear my credential which is a whole nother headache. Along with the headache that teaching already is. I had no idea it was going to be this hard, and it makes me wonder how some teachers actually passed all of these.
Deep breath.
How do I somehow still want to do this?
I know it's important and something I'm good at and will be rewarded by.
But goddamn. I never thought it would be so hard. And I've barely even started.
It's hard to take one thing at a time when there's so much looming, even though I know that's what I have to do.
In about 14 hours I can check one of my CBESTs off the list.
But it still feels like I haven't even made a dent.
But I'm starting to psych myself out now about this entire process of getting my credential and being a teacher. As of tomorrow I will have the CBEST and the CSET Subtest III down (the easiest of the 3 subtests). After that there's 2 more CSETS to do in the next 4 months which are scarier for me because I'm super weak with history and with science. Then, beyond all the work I'm going to have to do in grad school (assuming I get in...) -- which will be a LOT, especially if I go on to get my Masters, which I probably will-- I have to take the CTEL, the RICA (which is supposed to be really hard) and the CTC. I hadn't even heard of the CTEL or the CTC (or even the RICA til last week). And then after all that I have 5 years to clear my credential which is a whole nother headache. Along with the headache that teaching already is. I had no idea it was going to be this hard, and it makes me wonder how some teachers actually passed all of these.
Deep breath.
How do I somehow still want to do this?
I know it's important and something I'm good at and will be rewarded by.
But goddamn. I never thought it would be so hard. And I've barely even started.
It's hard to take one thing at a time when there's so much looming, even though I know that's what I have to do.
In about 14 hours I can check one of my CBESTs off the list.
But it still feels like I haven't even made a dent.