Is my amusement... unbecoming?
So I'm pretty lazy, and generally pretty laid back. Y'all know that, and if you don't, well, you should. Yeah, I have my ghosts. They follow me pretty much wherever I go. I think about people who used to be in my life, and wonder how they've been. Perfect example: Heather. I still think about Heather from time to time. The way I see it, if you care about someone like I cared about Heather, you can never stop caring about them. Yeah, the amount has declined, but it hasn't gone away, and I don't think it ever will. Yeah, it was a messed up situation. Oh well.
There are others, though, ghosts that I don't remember why they are there, why I had them in my life. The following is an excerpt from a post from one of these ghosts I don't remember. He was sort of from the "Heather/Peachez" part of my life. I talked to him because he was friends with her.
>Blaah, blaaah, motherfucking blah! I shouldntve read Wil's journal. I guess I took him off long ago for good reason. I wanted to shoot >myself when I came across his little "If God was in my earwax..." thing...fuck, that was horrid. He seems to be one odd person from what >Ive gathered from his other entries, but not in the good way. Ive no idea why the hell he has me added still, I really dont. Whether or >not he reads this...whoopty-shit! I need to chill out, like uberly. The whole world needs to fuck off right now.
So I fired back.
>Wow. I guess it's been a while since I've edited my "friends" list. You don't like what I say? Fuck you. Glad you took me off your friends >list. You think the shit I say in my livejournal represents who I am to the letter? You need to extract your head from your ass and >realize that it's FUCKING LIVEJOURNAL. People are ALWAYS going to write to a particular audience if it's in a PUBLIC FORUM. Maybe it's >your concept on reality that's "odd but not in the good way". I don't know nor do I care.
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>So I haven't removed you from my friends list. It's always been more effort than it really seemed to be worth. Why waste my time removing >you from a list when I could just scroll past your entry and continue reading. Do you know how much less time that takes? I can scroll >past your whining in a fraction of a second, whereas the symbolic removal of you from my friends list takes more effort than it ever >seemed to be worth. After now, who knows. I might take you off, or keep you on in spite, or in a continuation of my "not particularly >caring either way."
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>Here comes the fun part. I really don't mean you offense. You don't want to read my journal or have me as a friend? Fine. I'm gonna >continue on with my life the same way I was, and I kind of hope you do too. I honestly wish you the best of luck in whatever endeavors you >face. Have a nice day, and a nice life. Try to have fun and smile sometimes. The world isn't out to get you. "It can't rain all the time."
>Paz Fuerte,
>Wil
Yeah, I don't know what to think about this. I know I should probably update my own journal more. I mean... yeah, there's not really an excuse.
There are others, though, ghosts that I don't remember why they are there, why I had them in my life. The following is an excerpt from a post from one of these ghosts I don't remember. He was sort of from the "Heather/Peachez" part of my life. I talked to him because he was friends with her.
>Blaah, blaaah, motherfucking blah! I shouldntve read Wil's journal. I guess I took him off long ago for good reason. I wanted to shoot >myself when I came across his little "If God was in my earwax..." thing...fuck, that was horrid. He seems to be one odd person from what >Ive gathered from his other entries, but not in the good way. Ive no idea why the hell he has me added still, I really dont. Whether or >not he reads this...whoopty-shit! I need to chill out, like uberly. The whole world needs to fuck off right now.
So I fired back.
>Wow. I guess it's been a while since I've edited my "friends" list. You don't like what I say? Fuck you. Glad you took me off your friends >list. You think the shit I say in my livejournal represents who I am to the letter? You need to extract your head from your ass and >realize that it's FUCKING LIVEJOURNAL. People are ALWAYS going to write to a particular audience if it's in a PUBLIC FORUM. Maybe it's >your concept on reality that's "odd but not in the good way". I don't know nor do I care.
>
>So I haven't removed you from my friends list. It's always been more effort than it really seemed to be worth. Why waste my time removing >you from a list when I could just scroll past your entry and continue reading. Do you know how much less time that takes? I can scroll >past your whining in a fraction of a second, whereas the symbolic removal of you from my friends list takes more effort than it ever >seemed to be worth. After now, who knows. I might take you off, or keep you on in spite, or in a continuation of my "not particularly >caring either way."
>
>Here comes the fun part. I really don't mean you offense. You don't want to read my journal or have me as a friend? Fine. I'm gonna >continue on with my life the same way I was, and I kind of hope you do too. I honestly wish you the best of luck in whatever endeavors you >face. Have a nice day, and a nice life. Try to have fun and smile sometimes. The world isn't out to get you. "It can't rain all the time."
>Paz Fuerte,
>Wil
Yeah, I don't know what to think about this. I know I should probably update my own journal more. I mean... yeah, there's not really an excuse.