my feelings
I feel like you used me, I thought it was too good to be true. I sometimes doubt u ever really loved me. If u did love me I wouldn't be writing this and you would be right here next to me. I feel that all I was to you was what u called your particular, someone that could be there for u but when things got tough you could just dump. I was always there for you, but when I needed you the most u ran away. I don't expect u to ever forgive me or even see or call me again, but I thought we had somthing special. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. you broke my heart and this pain will be forever. I bet your parents are glad to see the back of me. I know they never really liked me. I tried to get to know them. but it was like talking to a brick wall. they just want someone for you that is of a higher class then I am. I still love u but I spose thats not enough for you. I think we see love differenty, tru love anyway. crying doesn't help but I can't stop doing it. You don't have to worry about me killing myself cause I don't think those thoughts anymore. I think I've lost my chance of ever becoming a father, and I wanted to be a father one day more then anything. I'm not blaming u for all this part of the blame rests on my sholders, I can't control my feeling proply and I think I didn't treat u right, I took u for granted sometimes. I was lazy. I don't expect anything from this. I just wanted you too know a few things. I can't say that I am happy that with the thing between u and daniel. all I can do now is try to make a new life for myself. with or without you I just don't know. you once said that that you were the happiest you had ever been when u were with me what that a lie? why couldn't u be happy with me again?