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i've heard some pretty good songs today, too bad they make me want to breakdown and ball my eyes out. this one especially :
The Freshmen - The Verve Pipe
When I was young I knew everything, and she a punk who rarely ever took advice. And now I'm guilt stricken sobbing with my head on the floor. Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice. I can't be held responsible, cause she was touching her face. I won't be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place.
For the life of me I cannot remember, what made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise. For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins. We were merely freshmen
My best friend took a weeks vacation to forget her. His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept. And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his head on a floor. Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says I can't be held responsible, cause she was touching her face I won't be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place.
We've tried to wash our hands of all of this. We never talk of our lacking relationships and how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our heads on the floor. We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip we'd say I cant be held responsible, cause she was touching her face. And I wont be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place.
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that i couldn't even sleep
So many secrets i couldn't keep
I promised myself i wouldn't weep
One more promise i couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep; there's no way out
This time i have really led myself astray
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow i'm neither here nor there
Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did i get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here i am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow i just don't believe it
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow i'm neither here nor there
Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow i'm neither here nor there
Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same
i miss my Christopher, but i just don't know what to do *here come the tears* God, please help me make a decision, i could use some wisdom right about now. i really don't like feeling that i have no control in my life but that's how i feel and there is NOTHING i can do about it. i want SO bad to be back with Chris but i don't know if that's what i "should" do. it's so hard being without him. the last couple days i've been a real bitch to him, i guess i just figure that if he is mad at me and doesn't want to talk to me than it will be easier to be here without him. i never realized how much he really means to me. i've always cared about him and loved him but now that i've spent a good portion of time with and without him, i would choose being with him (fighting and all) over not being with him. last night i was laying in bed thinking about how excited i was the whole way out to CA this last time, just because i KNEW i would get to see him first thing when i got to my moms house. then, when i got there, i barely turned the car off (if i even did) and sprinted out of my car to go give him a hug. and that first kiss, i seriously can't even describe it. i never thought i could miss something like that so much. now i REALLY wish i were out there.
The Freshmen - The Verve Pipe
When I was young I knew everything, and she a punk who rarely ever took advice. And now I'm guilt stricken sobbing with my head on the floor. Stop a baby's breath and a shoe full of rice. I can't be held responsible, cause she was touching her face. I won't be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place.
For the life of me I cannot remember, what made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise. For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins. We were merely freshmen
My best friend took a weeks vacation to forget her. His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept. And now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his head on a floor. Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says I can't be held responsible, cause she was touching her face I won't be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place.
We've tried to wash our hands of all of this. We never talk of our lacking relationships and how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our heads on the floor. We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip we'd say I cant be held responsible, cause she was touching her face. And I wont be held responsible, she fell in love in the first place.
Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blowtorch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that i couldn't even sleep
So many secrets i couldn't keep
I promised myself i wouldn't weep
One more promise i couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep; there's no way out
This time i have really led myself astray
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow i'm neither here nor there
Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did i get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here i am just a-drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
And everything seems cut and dried,
Day and night, earth and sky,
Somehow i just don't believe it
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow i'm neither here nor there
Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughing at the rain
A little out of touch, a little insane
It's just easier than dealing with the pain
Runaway train, never going back
Wrong way on a one-way track
Seems like i should be getting somewhere
Somehow i'm neither here nor there
Runaway train, never coming back
Runaway train, tearing up the track
Runaway train, burning in my veins
I run away but it always seems the same
i miss my Christopher, but i just don't know what to do *here come the tears* God, please help me make a decision, i could use some wisdom right about now. i really don't like feeling that i have no control in my life but that's how i feel and there is NOTHING i can do about it. i want SO bad to be back with Chris but i don't know if that's what i "should" do. it's so hard being without him. the last couple days i've been a real bitch to him, i guess i just figure that if he is mad at me and doesn't want to talk to me than it will be easier to be here without him. i never realized how much he really means to me. i've always cared about him and loved him but now that i've spent a good portion of time with and without him, i would choose being with him (fighting and all) over not being with him. last night i was laying in bed thinking about how excited i was the whole way out to CA this last time, just because i KNEW i would get to see him first thing when i got to my moms house. then, when i got there, i barely turned the car off (if i even did) and sprinted out of my car to go give him a hug. and that first kiss, i seriously can't even describe it. i never thought i could miss something like that so much. now i REALLY wish i were out there.