Here I am, Once again, I'm torn into pieces...
I woke up this morning and found out that my Grandpa Hoshield had passed away last night. Talk about a rotten way to wake up. I knew it was coming, and if I could have known 2 days before my GRANDMA was going to die, I would have considered it a blessing. I guess I had to go through something as hard as my grandma passing away though, to really appreciate the way things are supposed to be. God really DOES have a PLAN. My grandma wouldn't ever have been able to handle watching my grandpa suffer, and die. I think that she WAS meant to go before him. I have to tell you all a story my mom told me today.
Last night, when my grandpa died, all of his kids were around him - that's my mom, her 5 sisters, and brother. Right immediately after he passed away, my mom was out in the living room. Now my grandma has this HUGE picture window that looks out into her back yard... and there were TWO rabbits, just jumping over each other. Like one would jump over one, and then THAT one would jump over the one that just jumped over it. And the way my mom explained it... and it makes me cry everytime... she said it was like my grandma and grandpa were together again... and that they were so happy that they had found each other, and that was their way of letting my mom and our family know that they are happy now. And if you knew my grandma, you would know she spent probably 2-3 hours a day sitting and looking out that window. She knew every bird that lived in her bird houses, every rabbit that lived out there, and every cat that would wander into the yard every once in a while. She taught us to look out there and watch for birds, and rabbits, and squirrels... and we'd NEVER seen anything like THAT before.
I totally believe in all that stuff. I love it. It kinda keeps me alive. Same with the orbs in the pictures I take. Some are probably just flukes... or spots on the lens... but the one of me on the day of grandma's funeral was no fluke. Absolutely not. It's 100% absolutely my grandma. You can't tell me it's not! Not even CARLY can tell me I'm wrong THERE! :0) haha...
So tomorrow is the visitation from 2-8 with the rosary at 6. Be there. haha. The funeral is Wednesday at 11.
I don't know when I'll go back to school. I'm thinking Thursday morning. I don't have lab, so I don't have to be there early early... but before class at 1130. Whatever... I just can't miss Alias on Wednesday, no matter what happens. :0)
So to everyone... THANK you for your unconditional support and love. My thoughts and prayers are with all of YOU as well... I appreciate all you do for me.
Tomorrow I'm going to wake up and lay out in the sun until i have to come in and take a shower before visitation. I'm PISSED because I didn't bring home my khaki pants for the visitation tomorrow. I'm going to be ugly. :( Fuck.
Goodnight.
I LOVE YOU.
bk
Last night, when my grandpa died, all of his kids were around him - that's my mom, her 5 sisters, and brother. Right immediately after he passed away, my mom was out in the living room. Now my grandma has this HUGE picture window that looks out into her back yard... and there were TWO rabbits, just jumping over each other. Like one would jump over one, and then THAT one would jump over the one that just jumped over it. And the way my mom explained it... and it makes me cry everytime... she said it was like my grandma and grandpa were together again... and that they were so happy that they had found each other, and that was their way of letting my mom and our family know that they are happy now. And if you knew my grandma, you would know she spent probably 2-3 hours a day sitting and looking out that window. She knew every bird that lived in her bird houses, every rabbit that lived out there, and every cat that would wander into the yard every once in a while. She taught us to look out there and watch for birds, and rabbits, and squirrels... and we'd NEVER seen anything like THAT before.
I totally believe in all that stuff. I love it. It kinda keeps me alive. Same with the orbs in the pictures I take. Some are probably just flukes... or spots on the lens... but the one of me on the day of grandma's funeral was no fluke. Absolutely not. It's 100% absolutely my grandma. You can't tell me it's not! Not even CARLY can tell me I'm wrong THERE! :0) haha...
So tomorrow is the visitation from 2-8 with the rosary at 6. Be there. haha. The funeral is Wednesday at 11.
I don't know when I'll go back to school. I'm thinking Thursday morning. I don't have lab, so I don't have to be there early early... but before class at 1130. Whatever... I just can't miss Alias on Wednesday, no matter what happens. :0)
So to everyone... THANK you for your unconditional support and love. My thoughts and prayers are with all of YOU as well... I appreciate all you do for me.
Tomorrow I'm going to wake up and lay out in the sun until i have to come in and take a shower before visitation. I'm PISSED because I didn't bring home my khaki pants for the visitation tomorrow. I'm going to be ugly. :( Fuck.
Goodnight.
I LOVE YOU.
bk