so tired
Is anyone else incredibly tired of being here....at Drew, I mean? Lately it seems like everything about this place is getting on my nerves. The fact that I'm pretty sure I haven't met anyone new in at least a year. Or that it is completely impossible for me to avoid the people I want to. It seems like there is rapidly becoming a significant amount of people at this school that I just cant stand, just being around them pisses me off. Which isnt good considering I've got another year of running into those people to do.
I'm worried. I thought that when I got to college I would make a bunch of new friends, always have someone to talk to, to hang out with, but thats not quite how things worked out. And now I'm scared that I'm going to graduate and have nothing, I mean once you graduate you're pretty much on your own. How are you supposed to meet new people when you live alone, especially if you move somewhere that you dont know anyone? I know that its "easy" to find friends etc etc, but I feel like I missed my chance.
College was my chance to change. And I did change, so much more than I thought I would, but there's really no one around to notice. Its funny, I used to be so worried about grades and impressing my family, and now I'm not. Ok well I am, but not to that extreme extent. It scares me to think that I would honestly just rather have fun than have a well paying job, thats not who I was raised to be. My whole philosophy on life is changing and so I need a new group of people, or at least and old group that understands.
I feel like Drew cant provide me with either of those things. I'm ready to be done, thank goodness for camp and London.
I'm worried. I thought that when I got to college I would make a bunch of new friends, always have someone to talk to, to hang out with, but thats not quite how things worked out. And now I'm scared that I'm going to graduate and have nothing, I mean once you graduate you're pretty much on your own. How are you supposed to meet new people when you live alone, especially if you move somewhere that you dont know anyone? I know that its "easy" to find friends etc etc, but I feel like I missed my chance.
College was my chance to change. And I did change, so much more than I thought I would, but there's really no one around to notice. Its funny, I used to be so worried about grades and impressing my family, and now I'm not. Ok well I am, but not to that extreme extent. It scares me to think that I would honestly just rather have fun than have a well paying job, thats not who I was raised to be. My whole philosophy on life is changing and so I need a new group of people, or at least and old group that understands.
I feel like Drew cant provide me with either of those things. I'm ready to be done, thank goodness for camp and London.