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So...I think I like being on this medicine. I definetly feel more level, I don't have such extreem moods and things are easier to deal with. I've been truly happy for the first time in a while. The only problem is now that I know what being happy feels like....its even worse when I feel sad. I'm not sad for as long, and I can usually rationalize the problem out or at least come to terms with it but before that its hurts like hell. Today not one but two rather upsetting things occured...I'm back to that trapped feeling and I hate it, its not as bad by far but I still don't like it. I like being happy, its such an incredibly peaceful feeling, I just wish I could stay that way forever...such is life I suppose.