ALWAYSALWAYSALWAYS INMYHEART<3
i know i havent updated
in awhile
but i seriously couldnt
bring myself to
ALOTALOTALOTALOT
of good has happend but
ONE bad thing...REALLY bad thing
my dog of 11 years
CAPTAIN (WHITE WOLF)
was put to sleep because
he was unable to walk
and was sad as hell
i couldnt watch him suffer anymore
and i knew it was time
it is so hard to let go
even though he wasnt healthy
it made me happy to know he was there
but he couldnt be here anymore
i let it drag on to long
so the of June 2nd
the vet came to the house
i sat with Captain the whole time
from the time i got home from school
i hope he didnt notice how sad i was
or that i was crying and that
a few times i had to walk away
because i couldnt handle myself
so yeah the vet came
and everything was drawn out
--nick just stopped by
well anyway
she sadated him
after awhile of lectures of
how it was the right thing to do
i saw his head slowly fall to the floor
like leaves falling from a tree in autumn
his tounge slipped out and i fled
i could not watch
i put my head down and cried some more
i walked back in he was still alive
at this point but what he just saw
was the last thing he would ever see
he would never wake again
he was still breathing and blinked a few times
the vet and my neighbor carried him out
to the van and waited again because
everyone at this point was crying
then she closed the door
and did the deed
it started to pour
after she was done she opened the door
and talked to us standing out in the rain
for awhile then i became brave
and walked in the van...
i couldnt believe he was actually dead
i took his collar and leash off him
which was probably the hardest thing to do
im crying now just thinking about it
thats why it took so long even to write about it
and i cut a few pieces of his hair off
call me weird but his hair was beautiful
so white it blended with the snow
i stood there for awhile
like i axpected him to wake up again
but i knew it wouldnt happen
so i said my last goodbye and walked out
i felt bad leaving him like that
we all talked outside reminicing
and crying under an umbrella
then we went next door to have some dinner
and talk with each other to make things better
and sure enough as we sit outside
in my neighbors backyard
the brightest, biggest, and most beautiful
rainbow i have ever seen appeared
as the last drops fell from the sky
i knew it was peace
the downpour turned into a peaceful sun shower
with a rainbow
it made me feel alot better
i have a picture of it
ill post it sometime
well yeah that explains the worst expierence of my life
ill write about the good stuff later once i recooperate.
ok thats it :*(
ill write tomorrow
after finals...(as mishy would say) BOOOO
<333333333333333
CAPTAIN "CAPPY"
MARCH 14, 1993
TO
JUNE 02, 20O4
<333333333333333
in awhile
but i seriously couldnt
bring myself to
ALOTALOTALOTALOT
of good has happend but
ONE bad thing...REALLY bad thing
my dog of 11 years
CAPTAIN (WHITE WOLF)
was put to sleep because
he was unable to walk
and was sad as hell
i couldnt watch him suffer anymore
and i knew it was time
it is so hard to let go
even though he wasnt healthy
it made me happy to know he was there
but he couldnt be here anymore
i let it drag on to long
so the of June 2nd
the vet came to the house
i sat with Captain the whole time
from the time i got home from school
i hope he didnt notice how sad i was
or that i was crying and that
a few times i had to walk away
because i couldnt handle myself
so yeah the vet came
and everything was drawn out
--nick just stopped by
well anyway
she sadated him
after awhile of lectures of
how it was the right thing to do
i saw his head slowly fall to the floor
like leaves falling from a tree in autumn
his tounge slipped out and i fled
i could not watch
i put my head down and cried some more
i walked back in he was still alive
at this point but what he just saw
was the last thing he would ever see
he would never wake again
he was still breathing and blinked a few times
the vet and my neighbor carried him out
to the van and waited again because
everyone at this point was crying
then she closed the door
and did the deed
it started to pour
after she was done she opened the door
and talked to us standing out in the rain
for awhile then i became brave
and walked in the van...
i couldnt believe he was actually dead
i took his collar and leash off him
which was probably the hardest thing to do
im crying now just thinking about it
thats why it took so long even to write about it
and i cut a few pieces of his hair off
call me weird but his hair was beautiful
so white it blended with the snow
i stood there for awhile
like i axpected him to wake up again
but i knew it wouldnt happen
so i said my last goodbye and walked out
i felt bad leaving him like that
we all talked outside reminicing
and crying under an umbrella
then we went next door to have some dinner
and talk with each other to make things better
and sure enough as we sit outside
in my neighbors backyard
the brightest, biggest, and most beautiful
rainbow i have ever seen appeared
as the last drops fell from the sky
i knew it was peace
the downpour turned into a peaceful sun shower
with a rainbow
it made me feel alot better
i have a picture of it
ill post it sometime
well yeah that explains the worst expierence of my life
ill write about the good stuff later once i recooperate.
ok thats it :*(
ill write tomorrow
after finals...(as mishy would say) BOOOO
<333333333333333
CAPTAIN "CAPPY"
MARCH 14, 1993
TO
JUNE 02, 20O4
<333333333333333