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well its definatly been awhile since ive updated this thing...july something was the last time i updated...oh man. so much has happen...
guys have come and gone. none of them meant anything to me. i was just hurting myself and thinking i had feelings for all of them...then september things changed. there was this guy at work who in my eyes was the cutest thing in the world. i was somewhat seeing someone at that time who had turned out to be a complete waste of time and full of lies. i spent many nights after work sitting around drinking with people from work which was something i had never really done before. and im so glad i started doing that. joe and i are both really shy people who have both been extremly hurt in the past by people who took advantage of us. but with a little alcohol in us, things changed pretty quick. before i knew it i was spending the night at his place and we were inseperable. people at work told me they had never seen me this happy, which in turn made me even happier. it seems like forever that we've been together. but its only been about 3 months (jan. 25th will be 3 months <3) hes amazing. never thought i could ever find someone like him. we've had many ups and downs but its all worth it in the end. hes moving away for atleast 6 months next month and im not sure what im going to do without him around. granted he'll be close enough taht he can come and visit me and i cna go visit him. but it wont be the same. this guy is my everything. im so happy that ive finally found him.
other than that not much is going on in my life. i start a new job tomorrow and im extremly nervous about it. but i'll make it through. im thinking about quitting my other job because i hate it that much. its not fun comming home from work and hoping that you never have to go back there. i love being a waitress and i love everyone i work with...but the managers there make it impossible to want to stick around. anyways. im going to try and write in this more...i used to write so much. new new years resolution : UPDATE!
guys have come and gone. none of them meant anything to me. i was just hurting myself and thinking i had feelings for all of them...then september things changed. there was this guy at work who in my eyes was the cutest thing in the world. i was somewhat seeing someone at that time who had turned out to be a complete waste of time and full of lies. i spent many nights after work sitting around drinking with people from work which was something i had never really done before. and im so glad i started doing that. joe and i are both really shy people who have both been extremly hurt in the past by people who took advantage of us. but with a little alcohol in us, things changed pretty quick. before i knew it i was spending the night at his place and we were inseperable. people at work told me they had never seen me this happy, which in turn made me even happier. it seems like forever that we've been together. but its only been about 3 months (jan. 25th will be 3 months <3) hes amazing. never thought i could ever find someone like him. we've had many ups and downs but its all worth it in the end. hes moving away for atleast 6 months next month and im not sure what im going to do without him around. granted he'll be close enough taht he can come and visit me and i cna go visit him. but it wont be the same. this guy is my everything. im so happy that ive finally found him.
other than that not much is going on in my life. i start a new job tomorrow and im extremly nervous about it. but i'll make it through. im thinking about quitting my other job because i hate it that much. its not fun comming home from work and hoping that you never have to go back there. i love being a waitress and i love everyone i work with...but the managers there make it impossible to want to stick around. anyways. im going to try and write in this more...i used to write so much. new new years resolution : UPDATE!