first post
ok, so ive just joined this community and thought i shoud say a bit about myself.
im 20 and a student living in the uk. ive always struggled with my self-esteem and paranoia. ive got the best boyfirend in the whole world, literally, but the things that go round my head make the realtionship quite difficult at times. i know that people have their ups and downs but i always felt like with me it was more than that. my ups were almost euphoric but then the downs were awful. they would last for weeks and yeah when i was 15 i began to self harm. it was the only way i felt in control. with the help of a good firend i got out of the habit but i still felt like crap. i stopped self harming and up until about a month ago i hadnt done it for over 3 years but then i slipped up. id had a fight with my bf and it was the first thing that came to my head. i talked to my friend again and with a pretty big push from her i went to see the doctor last monday. she basically confirmed that it was depression so im going back again today to discuss treatment and im also seeing the counsellor today. in a way im releived that theres an explanation for how i think and feel but its still really scary. i just hope that from today, things start to get better for me.