Aug 13, 2007 18:31
First was denial.. now im blaming Zach for convencing me to get the abortion. Fuck .. that..
I was having nightmares about it last night.. abou tthe baby about me killing zach. supposedly while i was sleeping i was screaming giberish and zach rubbed my back and kissed me and i stopped. I hate it. i hate living with the guilt. I hate not having health insurance so i cant pay for birth control. I have Zachs dad paying for it right now. but then.. when he cant.. fuck .. again. its repedative and you all can look down at me because im a little whore and i have sex atleast 4 times a week and i get nocked up all the fucking time and i have a daughter.. but ,.. honostly fuck you.. up the fucking ass because im sick of hearing it because you dont know how it is to be me. Fuck.