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Have you ever heard a song, then for a split second, understand everything, just to lose it the next second? ya.... it is the weirdest feeling. but comforting. Very soothing, as if it was saying that the answers are there. Pah... oh well, this week, no this day has generally sucked big cock. Got my truck fixed, but the engine light will not shut off. So ya, something is fucked up in it
Jo and I are done for good it seems. Didn't want it to turn out that way, but i cant keep someone on a leash, nor can i expect them to want to keep a ld relationship. I did the right thing, and took it, and simply agreed. Usually i would have busted out and started screaming and bitching and blah blah blah. But no, i took the knife, rather well. I am almost proud of myself. But i have done enough and caused enough problems. So ya. I love her to death and always will. Unfortunately, life moves on, as will I. I have the hardest time letting go of anything. One day i will learn how to do this, and i hope it is soon... Im so sick of getting burned, you would think i would have learned by now. No, i rush, i go crazy, and glue myself to the damn floor. hahahahh... i sound like an attention whore... But fuck it, im tired, tired of people, tired of relationships, and damn tired of living. It sucks. So I have one word... Binge. And yes amber dearest, you can come. Drinks are on me.. hahhahahaah
Jo and I are done for good it seems. Didn't want it to turn out that way, but i cant keep someone on a leash, nor can i expect them to want to keep a ld relationship. I did the right thing, and took it, and simply agreed. Usually i would have busted out and started screaming and bitching and blah blah blah. But no, i took the knife, rather well. I am almost proud of myself. But i have done enough and caused enough problems. So ya. I love her to death and always will. Unfortunately, life moves on, as will I. I have the hardest time letting go of anything. One day i will learn how to do this, and i hope it is soon... Im so sick of getting burned, you would think i would have learned by now. No, i rush, i go crazy, and glue myself to the damn floor. hahahahh... i sound like an attention whore... But fuck it, im tired, tired of people, tired of relationships, and damn tired of living. It sucks. So I have one word... Binge. And yes amber dearest, you can come. Drinks are on me.. hahhahahaah