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[twiztidbitch007]

sooo i had a dream about this kid. it really confuses me because i havnt talked to this kid in like for ever . yeah i know i used to like him(A LOT) but i dont know why all of a sudden i start thinking about him again. i guess i just want to talk to him and try to be friends with him again. but im really scared. i mean ..... i dont know what i mean anymore. my life is going to hell. i cant really take it anymore. well i guess i have to but i dont know im so sick of everything school especially i ondt know how im going to take another year. i now understand why they say its the hardest year. but anyways back to that guy.everyone is telling me that hes like not doing very well and shit like that . and like i know were not friends but id be really sad if anything happend to him. i just dont know any more. i mean its not like i like him. i just wish we could be friends. i wish everyhting was beck to how it was last year . minus his at the time g/f. ok and my life is going to hell . i thnk i already stated that but it really is. if you start to do drugs(i dont recomend it) but never stop. ever since i did i havent een the same im just not happy anymore. i just put on a front because if i tell people how i feel i get a million and a 1/2 questions. i fucking hate being so emotional. why cant i just stop caring. my grades ok seriously are shit shit and even more shit!!!!!

i dont understand thats just about the jist of it. maybe i shouldnt post this because everyones going to be like awwww....or they wont say anything at all.... i dont know whatever im done..

ill add more when my life becomes somehow worse.