my will and testimony

[twiztid_fare_e]

im laying here on a blood soaked pillow, my tears making a river flowing to my sheets. and im staring down my bottle, my bottle filled with shame and remorse. with memories of those i lost and the ones following suite. of all the years ive wasted. all the hearts ive broken. my inner demons screaming my name, calling me because they know im joining them, in there world of fire and death. my faults. being left in the dark by the one i came from. my fathers piercing voice screaming my faults for all the world to hear. my brothers piercing eyes. all of you who pulled away from the wonderful thing we had. my spinning summer. and most important myself i created all of this, the bottle and its contents, every day the bottle grew heavier, because of me...so here i am at the bottom. i have nothing else to give. but know how much i love you. i hid that bottle in the back of the shelf, but i wont run from it anylonger. i can hear it screaming for me and im giving in. it just wants me, so everyone will be ok. so slowly one by one i will empty the bottle thats laying in my hand. i will slowly swallow all the pain and grief. mine and all of yours....the last one is gone. the empty bottle fell and rolled across the floor. as i lay there gasping for breath with images of my life running through my head. i know i will finally have my peace......
Jeska