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[twiztedmama84]

Have u ever thought and realized that the ppl u call ur best friends or hell even ur BRO or SIS are the ones that betray u the most and they way the get to u is by gettin to ur other friends?? I'm not sure of that has happened to u or hell even if it has happened to me but i will tell u that if thats the way they wanna play it then thats the way its gunna be...if this is God's way of tryin to get me closer to him and rely on him the only thing he has managed to do successfully is further piss me off. if i can't trust the ppl down here on this pathetic excuse of a life then wat the hell makes u think i can trust the one person i can't see (for one), allows shit to happen in my life (for HIS glory i might add) (#2), and three even tho i have mentioned it be4 but oh well...i have a major trust problem. i would talk to u in the beginning and begin to trust u but the moment somethin happens whether it by someone i trust tellin me somethin, me seeing ir for myself or watever the case may be and that trust is broken its done. the only time i will try an talk to u or hang out with u or hell even aknowledge u is when we been thru too much or i've known u for sooo long that i don't wanna have on my conscience that i didn't at least try to talk things and figure things out. as of right now there r only a select few i call BROs and SISs and a hell of alot few i call friends so i feel sorry for the ppl in my future even inc my so-called future husband cuz he would have to go thru 21 questions and then some just for me to see somethin or better yet feel somethin there. well thats it for now

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i kno its been a while since i've written in this thing but alot has been going and still is going on and i just flat out haven't had the time to write out my own entry so get over it...lol...