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so on thurs. night/morning i took phin into the vet he just wasn't feeling well and i was worried
they took his temp. it was up to 105 (cats are usually like 102)
they took an xray...they saw what they thought was a blockage and wanted to do surgery for it...i said go ahead and do it
they called me after the surgery was over...he had FIP a rare virus that affects cats...there is no cure
i could try to nurse him back from the surgery only to have him in pain and die within a month (maybe more) ...or put him to sleep
it was the hardest thing i've ever had to do...i hate myself for doing it but i didn't want him to be in pain....but i still can't forgive myself...he tucked his head into my hand while the doc. gave him the shots...and he just rubbed into my hand and was gone
i miss him sooo much more than i thought possible
my heart breaks every time i look around my house...i see him everywhere
also...my step grandma passed away on turs. night too
she had been in the hospital for a broken bone but was out and back at the nurseing home..i don't know what happened..my mom just said they took her to the hospital and she was totally unresponsive
she had been in pain for so many years (i've know her 15 and the whole time her condition just got worse and worse) I'm very sorry that she is gone
my parents will be in town fri.-sun. sat is the service
no matter what i try i just can't get numb
they took his temp. it was up to 105 (cats are usually like 102)
they took an xray...they saw what they thought was a blockage and wanted to do surgery for it...i said go ahead and do it
they called me after the surgery was over...he had FIP a rare virus that affects cats...there is no cure
i could try to nurse him back from the surgery only to have him in pain and die within a month (maybe more) ...or put him to sleep
it was the hardest thing i've ever had to do...i hate myself for doing it but i didn't want him to be in pain....but i still can't forgive myself...he tucked his head into my hand while the doc. gave him the shots...and he just rubbed into my hand and was gone
i miss him sooo much more than i thought possible
my heart breaks every time i look around my house...i see him everywhere
also...my step grandma passed away on turs. night too
she had been in the hospital for a broken bone but was out and back at the nurseing home..i don't know what happened..my mom just said they took her to the hospital and she was totally unresponsive
she had been in pain for so many years (i've know her 15 and the whole time her condition just got worse and worse) I'm very sorry that she is gone
my parents will be in town fri.-sun. sat is the service
no matter what i try i just can't get numb