there's a fire inside of this heart in a riot about to explode into flames
Ok boys? are the most confusing this on this fucking planet. Rocket Science is probably like first grade grammar compared to them. asdfghjkl;
So here's why i'm ranting.
Today was my last day of school for christmas break (\o/) and so just to chill, I spent the entire afternoon at my friend Jess' house (from 5pm to 11:45, just got home pretty much). And it was all fine and good times, as it always is with my friends. And then around 9:30-10ish, my other friend Vanessa says she invited this guy Jose to come over (that brought the total of people there to 10).
Now see...Jose...i've fallen in and out of like with him for pretty much all of high school, but I've never acted on it (we've all had hs crushes) both last year and this year, we've flirted heavily, but we stopped when he got a gf back in late October. they broke up about 4weeks later
ANYWAYS.
Jose came and sat on the other end of the living room since there were so many people. Once people started to leave, it was down to 6 of us. my friends Jon and Vanessa laid together on this love seat thingy. My friends Jess and Will laid together on one sofa, and then Jose came to lay with me on the other. We essentially cuddled from 10 to when I had to leave at 11:45. (Hell, I even dozed off on him at some point) Like I was curled up and he had his arm wrapped around me so I laid my head on his chest. and by the time I was leaving, I had my arm wrapped around him, my head laying on his stomach, and his other arm was resting on mine like subconsciously drawing circles and shit on it.
K, srsly? today in school I pretty much wanted to throttle him b/c he's so annoying and 12hrs later I'm falling asleep on him?
GUHHHHH
And I was texting my friend Corinne the entire car ride home freaking out, and she told me to just go for it, what do I have to lose? But that's the thing...I have him to lose. how awkward would it be if I asked him out and he said no or w/e? hell maybe he doesn't like me and was just friggen letting me use him as a human pillow idfk. (since my other friends who were sitting together are just that, friends, nothing more)
*RAAAAAAAAAAAGE*
tl;dr
boy's.are.confusing.
I shoulda been gay
So here's why i'm ranting.
Today was my last day of school for christmas break (\o/) and so just to chill, I spent the entire afternoon at my friend Jess' house (from 5pm to 11:45, just got home pretty much). And it was all fine and good times, as it always is with my friends. And then around 9:30-10ish, my other friend Vanessa says she invited this guy Jose to come over (that brought the total of people there to 10).
Now see...Jose...i've fallen in and out of like with him for pretty much all of high school, but I've never acted on it (we've all had hs crushes) both last year and this year, we've flirted heavily, but we stopped when he got a gf back in late October. they broke up about 4weeks later
ANYWAYS.
Jose came and sat on the other end of the living room since there were so many people. Once people started to leave, it was down to 6 of us. my friends Jon and Vanessa laid together on this love seat thingy. My friends Jess and Will laid together on one sofa, and then Jose came to lay with me on the other. We essentially cuddled from 10 to when I had to leave at 11:45. (Hell, I even dozed off on him at some point) Like I was curled up and he had his arm wrapped around me so I laid my head on his chest. and by the time I was leaving, I had my arm wrapped around him, my head laying on his stomach, and his other arm was resting on mine like subconsciously drawing circles and shit on it.
K, srsly? today in school I pretty much wanted to throttle him b/c he's so annoying and 12hrs later I'm falling asleep on him?
GUHHHHH
And I was texting my friend Corinne the entire car ride home freaking out, and she told me to just go for it, what do I have to lose? But that's the thing...I have him to lose. how awkward would it be if I asked him out and he said no or w/e? hell maybe he doesn't like me and was just friggen letting me use him as a human pillow idfk. (since my other friends who were sitting together are just that, friends, nothing more)
*RAAAAAAAAAAAGE*
tl;dr
boy's.are.confusing.
I shoulda been gay